Only Fools (Camila/You)

Honey, I'm A Fool

My face fell as I stared back into her chocolate pools "what have I done?" I mumbled under my breath.

"Where did you learn how to do that?" She asked flirtatiously. "I watch a lot of porn." I said mindlessly, not really caring what came out of my mouth at this point. I was still trying to wrap my head around what I had just done.

"Are you okay?" Camila asked seriously. "I'm so sorry Camila. I shouldn't have done that th-th-this was a mistake." I quickly stuttered out, backing away from Camila then turning to pick up her scattered clothes for her.

I handed her the clothes and ran a hand through my hair. I just entered myself into some deep shit. This is so bad none of this should have ever happened. I shouldn't have let her kiss me.

"You regret it?" She asked softly, sounding a little hurt. I quickly shot my head over to Camila who was throwing her shirt on.

"Don't you?" I asked shocked. "No way, Y/n. I love you." She said sincerely then hopped off of the counter and slowly took a step towards me. I was frozen. All I couldn't do was breath and take everything she said in.

"Do you still love me?" She asked, cautiously taking my hand in hers and interlacing our fingers. My lips parted and I opened my mouth to say something but quickly shut it. I looked down and Camila stayed quite, waiting patiently for my reply.

"Oh course I still love you." I said softly while looking up at her through my lashes, looking like a kicked puppy. "Then will you let me finally explain?" She asked just as soft. I looked to the side wondering if what she had to say was worth it.

"Okay." I said. She pulled me over to the couch and sat next to me. "Trust me when i say that I've loved you since the first time I saw you. My mind didn't know but my heart did. It always has." She confessed. "This doesn't add up Camila. You say these things but I just don't understand." I say sadly not looking at her.

"Lauren and I have a past. I knew you were into Normani so I tried to move on and I did, with Lauren. It went on for a while and I was in love with her. I thought she was the love of my life, Y/n. Things got messy and people started to catch on so we decided to end things. That's when you came in and all my feelings that I thought went away came back. It was so overwhelming and I just.. I had to have you. We got together, then Lauren came back. She wasn't too cool with me moving on so quickly. She wanted me back and I denied her, but she was consistent. She kissed me one night and I tried to stop. I promise. You have to understand. I know you understand." Camila looked at me with pleading eyes. I couldn't look away. She was right. I did understand. If the last 30 minutes didn't prove it, then the look in my eyes did.

"I just need some time to think. It's still a fresh wound. I hope you'll be patient with me." I said not being able to look her directly in the eye anymore. My bad girl act has been dropped 100% now. That makes me kinda angry since it's only been a few hours and she's already torn down my self defense mechanism.

She cupped my cheeks and gently turned my head to face her. She leaned in and slowly attached her lips to mine and kissed me with so much passion. I couldn't help the smile that found its way to my face once she pulled away. She kept my face close, or noses touching, and looked into my eyes "I love you, Y/f/n Y/l/n" she whispered then pecked my lips one more time before she got up and left to the back.

My eyes rolled to the back of my head and I fell back on the couch. I put a hand over my eyes and sighed "what are you doing?" I asked myself.