Nothing Like Us | Grayson Dolan

Twenty Four

I sat in the car with Grayson trying to figure out which question I want to ask him first. I mean most of them are going to be about Brooke and his past relationship but now that he is open to talk about it I have no idea what to say.

"Why didn't you tell me it was Brooke?" I asked and he turned to face me.

"I wasn't ready to actually tell you everything about my past relationship. We weren't together yet." He told me keeping direct eye contact with me.

"What about me bothered you so much that you had to complain about me to her?" I asked because I have figured he told her things that she will use against me.

"You never bothered me! It bothered me that I couldn't have you, I've always had a different feeling towards you. And Brooke kind of sensed that! So obviously I had to try everything to save my relationship! I was in love with her" he told me and I lightly smiled but that made me worried if he was still in love with her.

"What were you thinking when you told her about me and Lucas?" I asked and he took a deep breath and took my hands. I didn't pull away I just let him.

"I wasn't thinking! I was so pissed and she was the first person I saw after I left your house. I am so stupid for even talking to her after what she did to me! I just needed to vent to someone. Right after I told her I felt so guilty, I don't know how I could ever make that up to you! I am such an asshole for ever saying that." Grayson said while lightly squeezing my hands.

"Do you still love her?" I asked Grayson and he looked at me shocked. He shook his head.

"Of course not! All I have is nothing but hate for her. I could never love her." He told me and I looked down shaking my head. I pulled a hand away from his and wiped my eyes. He took his hands and lifted my chin up.

"You told her that about me." I said, I felt like he is doing the same thing he did with Brooke. He is just saying that to save our relationship.

"Ari, when I told her that I was lying. When I'm telling you this I'm being honest! Why would I ever have feelings for someone who put me through so much shit! I was bothered by you cause I couldn't have you, I hate Brooke because she had me and fucked me up! I want to be with you if I didn't I wouldn't be here right now"  Grayson said grazing his thumbs over my hands. I felt a small smile appear on my face which made Grayson smile. I lightly leaned over and kissed him. I pulled away and he kept looking at me.

"Can I ask you a question?" Grayson asked and I nodded my head.

"If you are comfortable with answering this but what happened to your parents?" Grayson asked and I felt my heart start racing. I took a deep breath and decided to tell him, I'm hoping I can trust him with this.

"Growing up my dad left us and we never actually met him or got to know him. When I started middle school, Alex was in 8th grade. My mom told us how she had 're-connected' with my dad and wanted us to leave jersey and go live with him in California. Alex went crazy and fought with my mom until she let him stay in jersey. I decided to stay with Alex and my mom chose my dad over us and moved to California. Alex doesn't talk to them at all, my mom tried to talk to us in the beginning but now I don't even know where she is." I explained to Grayson. I didn't even cry I felt no emotion anymore when explaining this story, I'm angry, I'm confused but I'm not sad. My mom isn't worth being sad over.
I lightly smiled at Grayson and he just hugged me. He held me close to him and didn't say anything and that was all I wanted right now.

He pulled away and kissed my forehead.

"If you found out where they were would you want to go see them?" Grayson asked and I shook my head.