The Driver (Completed)

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( Alison )

for my whole life i've been waiting for true love and when i feel it for the first time it's just a game. i really thought she was different but the fact she could something like this to me makes me sick. but what did i expect? she's known for it.

''what are you thinking about?'' i look down and see those brown eyes stare at me.

''nothing.'' i say and flash her a fake smile. on the inside i feel my heart bumping, it's broken and hard to heal.

she removes her weight from me and lean on her elbow. ''you're not invisible alison, i know you're hurt by my actions.'' she sighs. i know she regrets it but it's too late now, once you've done it you can't undone it. i hope she knows this doesn't chance what she did.

''hurt? i'm broken emily.'' i tell her and sit up on the couch. ''it's already done.'' i whisper. behind me i feel her moving until her arms wraps around my stomach. i feel warm tears escape my eyes which cause me to wipe them away quickly.

i glance to my sides, seeing her legs on each side of me. she's really trying, that must mean something..right? or maybe she's just trying to sleep with me again so she can brag about it in front of her friends.

''please.'' she whispers and put her head on my shoulder. i can feel her breath on my skin, it's warm and comfortable. ''i don't know why i did it, i guess i'm not used to feel something for someone. but i really am sorry for it.''

''i need someone real and faithful emily. someone that i can count on in difficult situations, someone i can hug whenever i want, someone i can love with all my heart, someone that loves me back..'' i stop myself and take a deep breath. ''and you proved that you're not what i'm searching for..i'm sorry.'' it's barely audible, only for her ears. letting those words escape my mouth is hard enough without her arms holding me with her life. i really do feel something for this girl but it's not enough for my heart.

for the first time during this conversation i glance back at her, seeing her chocolate brown eyes gaze into mine. they're full with tears and completely pure. something you can fall easy for. i hope she finds a new girl, behind that shell of rudeness she deserves it.

''don't do this ali, i can literally feel my heart out of my chest and not in a good way. i can't go through this again..specially not with you.''

i grab her hands and rip them away. ''what do you expect me to do emily?'' i look to the side, seeing her lean back against the couch backrest with her arms on top of it.

''i don't expect you to do anything but i hope you can forgive me one day.''

''i hope so too.'' i say and stand up. my eyes find their way back to hers and for a moment i thought about giving in even though i know i shouldn't. she's a heartbreaker and a huge player. i can't let a girl like her control my heart.

''you know where to find me if you change your mind.'' now she doesn't even look me in the eye. that's the rule of a player, don't look and fall.

i sigh and walk up to the door, throwing her a last glance before i unlock and lean against it to press it open. ''bye emily.'' i hear my voice crack. if i look at her now i'll probably crawl back in her arms and that's the last thing my heart deserves.

''bye alison.'' i hear her whisper before i step outside her box and close the door behind me. people close enough turn their focus to me which cause me to speed out of the stadium. once i'm out i collapse in the grass and bury my face in my hands. i don't want to see or hear from her again and that's it!

I've reached the final line and there's no turning back..

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a player should never get away with it. not even emily.

love hurts..

(i'll fix the mistakes later)