More than just a friendship

Chapter 6 - Sleep tight

I try not to think about it, but I can't avoid it. I can't avoid what I'm starting to feel for Josh. I really try to ignore the feelings, but they just keep coming back to me. I know that it's wrong. That it can't be more wrong than this and I feel bad that I can't do anything to stop it. I'm about to fall in love with him. With Josh. With my best friend who absolutely don't see me as more as his best friend. It kills me to know that he doesn't think of me in the same way but at the same time I'm happy that he doesn't. I don't want to lose our friendship because it's so amazing and unique. He is the most amazing friend I've ever had and his friendship means everything to me. I wouldn't sacrifice it for anything in the whole world and I would rather die than lose it. He's too important. I love him.

"Jen!" I return to reality when Josh comes back into my room. He smiles while entering my bedroom, as always, and sits down on my bed "Are you hungry?" he asks.
I shake my head "Not after the breakfast you gave me."
Ha laughs "Okay, good. How's your head then?"
I feel after "It's better. I think we can start working again tomorrow."
He puts his head cocked and his smile disappears "I talked to Francis about that and he said that you'll have to rest for at least another day, unfortunately." I sigh "And he also said that the whole cast is going out for dinner tonight," I shine up, this is exactly what I need ", but you have to stay here and rest. And I need to come with them."
I sigh again "Typical."
"Maybe I can try convince him to let me stay here with you?" "
I shake my head "No, that's okay. I'll be fine."
"Are you sure?" I nod "Alright. Unless it gets too late I'll come back here afterwards. Don't forget to take your medicine."
"How could I forget?" I smile.
"That's my girl." He says.

I spend the rest of the evening in bed, of course, watching Harry Potter. It's subtitled in Spanish but aside from that, I have it pretty good. My head feels a lot more better than it did yesterday and if it wasn't because of Francis I could easily work tomorrow but no, I have to spend another day in my bed while the rest of the cast is having fun on the beach without me. I wonder what they're doing right now, at the dinner. Is the food as delicious as it was the other night? Do they miss me? They might think a little about me now and then and sometimes I might form part of a conversation, but I don't think that they miss me. Why would they?

I have now been here for several hours without visiting the toilet even once. The last time I did was when Josh was here before the dinner and I would really have to go to the bathroom right now. I decide to send him a text to avoid making him upset later.
"Going to the bathroom." I send to him and then I get up from the bed. I go to the bathroom, locking the door even though I'm the only one here and then I enjoy doing something that Josh has no control over.

The first thing I do when I return to bed is to check if I have received a reply from Josh, which I have.
"Okay, be careful." it says and I laugh for myself.
"It went fine. No need to worry Josh." I reply and almost immediately I get a response.
"Haha, how could I not be worried given how clumsy you are?"
"Ha-ha. Shut up." I respond and then I put the phone away to continue watching Harry Potter for the rest of the night.

(JOSH'S POV)
It is just after 1:00 when I open the door to Jennifer's hotel room. It's dark and completely silent apart from the sound of the tv in her bedroom. I shut the door behind me, take my shoes off and then sneaks into her bedroom hoping that she's asleep. And she is. She has fallen asleep sitting up with the remote control to the television in one hand, and although it looks extremely uncomfortable she still looks very peaceful.

I walk over to her to take the remote from her. I turn the tv off and then I put the remote away.
Översättning
"Jennifer," I whisper while lightly touching her face. She wakes up in a jolt, but when she sees me she yawns and closes her eyes again, "do you want me to help you to lie down?" I ask and she nods. She sits straight up, still with her eyes closed. I fix her pillow and then helps her to lie down "There," I say ", goodnight. Sleep tight." I know that she's already asleep so I remain standing by her bed for just another few seconds just to look at her. I look at how she peacefully and slowly inhale and exhale, how her eyes are moving under the eyelids but especially on how beautiful she is. It doesn't matter how many times I've seen her styles and dressed in beautiful dresses at galas and premieres, I'll always think she's the most beautiful like this. When no one else in the whole world sees her expect me. When she's just Jennifer the human and not Jennifer the successful Oscar winner. When she's just the way she is right now. When it hurts to have to leave her because I love her so much.