Forbidden

Prologue(revised)

2 years ago

Nandito ako sa harapan ng isang puntod. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. No, scratch that. I don't feel anything. Inilapag ko ang dala kong isang puting rosas. This is the first and maybe the last time that I'll be here. Makalipas lang ng ilang sandali, nagpasya na akong umalis at nagtungo sa isang pampang na malapit lamang sa pinanggalingan kong puntod na kung saan kitang-kita ang papalubog na araw. Nang maramdaman kong may tumabi sa akin. Hindi ko nilingon ito pagka't batid ko kung sino ito base sa naamoy kong pabango niya.

"Are you satisfied? Are you happy at what you've done?" Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya dahil mismong sarili ko ay hindi ko maintindihan, kaya napalingon ako sa kanya. He glanced also at me and we stare each other.

I am staring at those emotionless eyes. "Seina, don't let your emotions controll you. Look at what happened because you let it controlled you." You can't detect any emotions in his voice nor in his eyes.

I don't know if he's angry at me. Maybe he's disappointed. He looked away but you can say that he is waiting for my reaction, but he doesn't got any reactions from me. Suddenly, he turned his back and walk away. I decided to look away from him. I look at the sun setting in the horizon. It's beautiful and at the same time scary. Because it means it is getting dark.

No! I'm not afraid of the dark but I'm scared of myself. I'm scared with the emptiness I feel. Emotions make you weak if you let it controll you but what if you don't have any of it? Emotions make you a human. I'm scared right now for what I'm becoming.

After the sun disappeared in the horizon, I hurriedly went home and called my father. After a few more rings, he answered.

"It's me, Seina. I accept."

<Are you sure? There is no turning back Seina. You know my rules.>

"Yes, I'm sure of it."

<Very well then.>

Maybe this is my fate. To become the devil itself and live within my own hell. I am destined to become a heartless human afterall. No, I don't deserved to be called human. I am worst than a monster. I can be the devil or the hell, and maybe the darkness. That is what I am feeling right now. Yami. Darkness.