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ever since i got back from yoongi's house hugging my girlfriend felt weird. really weird. her hand used to feel warm and soft in mine but now it feels cold and out of place. her lips used to be sweet but now are cold and vacant. everytime we kiss all i can think about is yoongi. what is happening to me?
goddamn it i'm a heterosexual male
yoongi keeps trying to call me but i can't pick up. i just can't. maybe if i just ignore him for a while this feeling in my stomach will go away. his eyes and his fingers and his lips haunt me throughout the day. i sigh, annoyed as i turn over in bed to face yerin. "baby what's wrong?' she whispers lacing her fingers with mine. wrong, this all feels wrong. yoongi should be the one next to me right now.
fuck fuck fuck. no i didn't mean that. i love yerin. she's my girlfriend and i'm her boyfriend and i love her, right? "u-uh it's nothing babe" i cringe slightly as the word 'babe' passes through my lips and lingers in the silence. curse you min yoongi. i run my fingers through my hair messing it up slightly. yerin shifts closer to me and places her lips on my neck. i shudder in disgust.
all of this just feels so wrong. "god jimin you're so hot when you do that" she murmurs, kissing my neck down to my exposed collarbone. i place my hands on her shoulders pushing her back. "i'm sorry babe we can't, i have work tomorrow" i lie quickly as her face falls. "it's fine baby" she smiles kissing my lips slowly.
the whole time i clamp but eyes shut, wishing for it to be over. "goodnight" she wraps her arms around my torso and closes her eyes. yoongi's face floats around in my mind. his soft skin and his pink lips and his thin arms that once hooked around my neck. his smile and his laugh. but i'm brought out of my mind when yerin tightens her grip around my body.
i hate this. i hate it. fuck no, no i don't. i love yerin. i love because she's my girlfriend and she's beautiful and kind. i love yerin.
i love yerin?
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okay okay okay i'm kind of freaking out and by kind of i mean completely because this story is ranked #149 in the fanfiction category.
wHAT THE FUCK YOU GUYS LIKE ACTUALLY WHAT THE FUCK
ITS ONE AM AND IM SITTING ON MY LOUNGE EATING CHOCOLATE BISCUITS AND LISTENING TO BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY ON REPEAT AND YOU GUYS GOT ME TO #149
IM SUCH A LOSER WHAT HOW
OKAY BUT I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH AND I NEVER THOUGHT THIS STORY
WOULD GET ANY READS LET ALONE 4.2K??????
THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH VSDVCHJSABJBVD
hope you liked this
see u next time
- alex
