The Emptiness

Raised By Wolves- Falling In Reverse

Janette let me go outside to get some air. I quickly handed a ten dollar bill in her hand for a tip and rushed to put my clothes on. My stomach had a tiny, unnoticable bump.

I walked out of the room and ran into the least expected person, my dad. My eyes bulged, and I was stuck to the spot. He grabbed my shoulders and looked me straight in the eyes. "What are you doing here?"

"Dad- I can explain." My shoulders slumped and tears began to collect in my eyes. Okay then, explain yourself Snow, my sub-conscious said. I thought about. My boyfriend is in a gang and he raped me, which in return, impregnated me, I answered my sub-conscious.

"What are you doing here?" he repeated.

So I tried again. "What are you," I paused and looked around, "doing here?"

"Answer the damn question!" his eyes were an almost black color.

A sob racked my body as I crumpled up in his arms, and for once in my life, he let me fall. He stared where I used to stand. I brought my knees up to my chest and decided it was time to stop crying. I stood up and watched my dad as he left the clinic.

I looked around at the people watching me. I recollected myself and walked out the door to see the most surprising thing of the day. Amy pressed against Axel in a slutty manner, shoving her tongue down his throat.

I ripped her away and stomped to the car. As my life fell apart, she played tonsil hockey with my "boyfriend's" bestfriend.

I turned the key in the ignition and flew out of the parking lot. It took me about five minutes to get home and l see that my father was home. I carefully walked inside to see my suitcases at the bottom of the stairs.

"...Dad?...."

He appeared out of no where. I jumped a little, and instantly grabbed my stomach. Motherly instinct, I thought to myself.

"Whose the father?" he says very gently. I gulp when he grabs my arms and holds them by my side.

When I don't answer he repeats himself. I bite my lip and hold back a sob.

Before I can think he arm swings around he hits me in the face. My hand darts up to where he hit me. There is a redhot pain settling in my cheek. A tear drips out of my eye as I grab my suitcase and start to leave.

"Snow!" my father screams. "Snow!" I ignore him.

I walk past Amy. Past Axel. Past Andy, who stands there gawking at my father. For a second, just a tiny second, I see his eyes dart toward me, with a look of concern on his face. And for another second, I think he actually cares for me. I walked towards my car.

I throw the suitcase in the back of the car and drive away, not knowing where I'm going. I drove past my old life and waved out the window.

*5 Months Later*

I smell the crisp, clean, fresh air as I step out of my apartment. Kaylee calls after me. "Bye!" She screams and clings to Jeremy.

Kaylee and Jeremy are sharing an apartment with me. Kaylee backed away from being a slut when I called her and sobbed to her about my situation. She moved in with me, promising she would beat the crap out of the next guy to hurt me.

Kaylee met Jeremy at school. He was there with his dad for the day and Kaylee couldn't resist. Eventually Kaylee dropped out of highschool. You might think that this is a tragic tale of how love ruins your education, but really, it was for the best. Her and Jeremy are engaged. It's actually a beautiful story they have.

I smile at her and give her a thumbs up. I looked down at my stomach. I never went back to the doctors to find out if it was a boy or a girl. I have a hunch that it's a boy, but I'm not sure. Kyler, Kaylee and I decided we would name him.

I smiled the whole way to my job. I made some consolations with Kaylee and we decided that I would wait until next year to join a college because of the baby.

I still missed everyone. My dad. Amy. Maybe even Axel and Andy. My heart ached and I remembered memories when I pulled into the parking lot of CVS.

As I waddled inside, Josh greeted me. "Hey, girlie. How's my baby doing?" he asked me. Josh leans down close to my stomach and starts to talk. "You are gonna be such a cutie!" he gushes.

I giggle. Normally I would've been freaked out, but Josh is gay. Josh is literly my new best friend. Resting my hands on my stomach, I sit behind the cash register. I should've been standing, but I had enough stress with the baby coming.

A boy about my age walks in. His pitch black hair is spiked up and his icey blue eyes dart around the room, looking for something. My eyes start to tear up. "Axel?" I whisper softly, and his eyes dart towards me.

We stare at each for small two seconds, but it feels like an eternity before he starts to walk towards the cash register. Once he's at the counter, I'm standing up. "Snow?" he asks. I step out from behind the counter wrap my arms around him.

I'm pregnant, but I'm still small.

I softly cried into his shoulder as he hesitantly wraps my arms around me. "What about Andy and Amy?" I say through tears.

"They're back at home," he says and grabs my hand, leading me out the door.

"Wait," I stopped him. "I work here, I can't just leave."

"Yes, you can."

I slip my wrist out of his grip and walk over to my manager. "Excuse me sir. I need to leave. For family purposes." He nods and goes back to his work. I follow Axel to his car and we drive off towards Naugatuck.

In my move, I had gotten farthest away in Connecticut that I could from my father and Andy.

"You cut your hair," I say to Axel when were nearing my father's house.

He stares at me for a second and then looks back at the road. "Snow," he starts but doesn't finish.

I concentrate on how things have changed. The trees are shades of orange, red, and yellow. The leaves flutter when Axel's car flies past them. I want to speak to him but I can't think of what to say. "This is not my home anymore." I whisper, my voice wavering.

"What?" Axel still stares intently at the round, as if he wants it to burst in flames.

"You said 'they're at home' this is not my home anymore," my voice is slightly above a whisper.

He glances at my stomach and back at the road. I barely look like I'm pregnant. It's the size of a baby bump. The silence in the car is awkward. I look up to see Axel pulling into my dad's driveway.

I close my eyes and suck in a big breath to hold back tears. I open the car door and make my way to door. Axel whips open the door and pulls me inside.

A.N. Little bit of a drastic chapter, don't ya think? Sorry for making you the gay guy Josh. I wrote this before you started reading it;)

Bye