The Emptiness

Makeup- Escape the Fate

Weeks had passed, and no one except Amy, Haylei, Andy, Axel, and me knew about the pregnancy. I didn't want to tell anyone else because the news would spread to my parents and I would be kicked out.

It was already a little past my third month for the pregnancy, and I thought things would change that I had already argued with Andy about the abortion idea of his, telling him that his child was inside of me.

I thought about the ultrasound I had tomorrow and I knew I was kind of excited about finding out the gender of the baby.

I rubbed my still flat stomach and put a crooked half smile on my face. Amy was sitting across from me at the bar in the kitchen. "You're so adorable when you daydream," she smiled and tapped my nose lightly with a pencil.

She was looking through the book of baby names that I had picked up at CVS. She had picked put a few boys names and picked out a few girl names. She said it was hard to admit, but she wanted me to have a boy. When I asked her, all she said was, "Its easier."

"What do you want to name...?" she guestured towards my stomach. Amy looked up from the book.

I shrugged with a slight laugh.

"Come on. Get those motherly instincts working."

"I don't know. Something pretty or unique for the girl and pretty much the same for a boy," I answered.

"Name it Amy!" Amy laughed and showed off her pearly white teeth. I'm blaming it on pregnancy hormones but I felt a burning jealousy inside me. I knew the jealousy had always been there but the feeling felt way more intense. I laughed to hide it but quickly stopped and grabbed the name book from her.

"I have a name for the baby!" She screamed. Amy was usually pretty obnoxious so I barely flinched.

"What?" I asked and looked up from my book.

"Im not gonna tell you, it'd ruin the surprise." She smiled secretively and twirled a piece of her hair around her finger. "Let's just say I was talking to Andy about baby names."

There was a long pause before Amy got up and grabbed a soda from the fridge.

"Judging by the way you look, your baby will be gorgeous." She took a sip of her soda.

"Was that a joke?" I asked in all seriousness.

She slapped my arm lightly and looked at her watch. "Its late babe, go to sleep."

My father was working until twelve tonight, which seriously sucked considering we didn't have any food in the house. I wanted to stuff my face.

I got up and walked up two sets of stairs. Amy walked behind me for precautionary measures incase I tripped.

I got to my room and quickly changed into my pajamas. Amy did the same thing and then turned on the tv.

The local news station was on.

"-were found in an abandoned alley and it appears that they were poisoned. This alley is known to be the 'Silver Blood' gang's alley." A picture of two men filled most of the screen. They were both pale as a sheet and a purple-ish color. My eyes bulged out of my head. The only thing I could think about was Andy killing people.

I rubbed my temples and snuggled deeper into the covers "Goodnight Amy," the words barely made their way out of my lips.

And from the other side of the bed I heard Amy whisper, "Goodnight babe."

***

I woke up the next morning feeling slightly refreshed. I got up and pulled my hair was into a loose bun before waking Amy up and walking downstairs.

My father was sitting at the table. He was clearly just getting up. He had on a blue robe and plaid pajama pants. He had a newspaper in one hand and cup of coffee in the other. In the middle of the table was lots of food.

I scooched into a chair and stuffed my face. He handed me a cup of hot milk. I told him I was on a no caffiene, fish, soft cheeses, and raw eggs (like cookie dough) diet to help me gain pounds.

My father only laughed and said, "You sound exactly like your mother when she was pregnant." I nearly choked on the waffles I was eating when he said that.

I sipped on it before putting it down and getting up. "I'm gonna go get ready." I gulped down the rest and headed towards the downstairs bathroom. I stripped my clothes and got into the shower.

The warm water hit my back soothingly. I scrubbed my hair and body free of dirt and sat there for a couple of seconds in the steaming hot water. I releculantly got out and wrapped a towel around myself. As I started to put my underwear on, I heard the front door close, signaling that my dad left for work. Damn, boys get ready fast.

I slipped on a blue camisole and what Amy called my 'held together by pins' jeans. I towel dried my hair until it was barely damp. I blowdried the rest and scrunched it. "Pretty," I said as I swept on a bit of gray eyeshadow and a thin line of black eyeshadow. I smiled and headed downstairs.

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I grabbed my phone and the car keys, seeing as my father had two cars. I quickly slipped on a pair of blue converse. Just as I slipped out the door, my phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Snow, it's Andy. I won't be able to make it to the ultrasound. Okay? Bye."

I wanted to scream after he hung up. I slipped the phone into my pocket and drove to Amy's house, and then drove to the hospital.

"Deja vu." I said, implying the day Andy raped me.

Amy started to get out of the car. I copied her and we walked inside. I was shaking. "You okay?" Amy asked. I simply nodded even though I was sick to my stomach.

I was actually nervous to find out whether or not I was having a boy or a girl.

I signed in and waited for them to call my name. I sat there for about fifteen minutes before they called my name. I got up and Amy followed me.

The doctor that I was working with with a young Asian doctor. She had long black hair and a very pretty face. I smiled nervously when she gave me the hospital dress to put on.

She came close to me and whispered in my ear. "I was just like you when I was younger. I got pregnant and now I have children. You'll be fine." She moved away. "My name is Janette."

I felt better after she told me that. I felt like someone had gone through what I was going through. I sat down on the bed. I put on the hospital dress and laid down.

"I know that this is alittle early for the gender ultrasound so we might not be able to find out the gender right now.." she lifted up my dress and rubbed the cold blue gel on my stomach. I shivered.

She moved the stick-thingy around my stomach and I looked up at the screen. A abnormally tiny alien like baby appeared on the screen. She laughed and looked at me. "Im actually not sure. We won't make you pay for this," she assured as gave me a towel to wipe the gel off my stomach.

It made a snapping noise as she pulled her gloves off. I gagged when the sick feeling came back.

Amy squeezed my hand and faced me. "Are you okay?" I responded by throwing up on the towel.

A.N.- Hahahahahahahhahaha<3 I have this name that I absolutely love cuz I know the sex of the babyyyyy:):):)

I'm watching the ghost whisperer right now and its awesome. Rawrawrawr. K bye.

Well John, TURBO FIRE!!!