Blake's P.O.V
I can't believe I'm sitting here right now. Wearing my favorite suit, surrounded by people I've never met. My best friend isn't even by my side. It's not his fault, his company would help though.
I'm dying on the inside. Trying to keep a straight face while those around me continue to sob. It's hard being the strong one. I don't like it. I want to break down, I need to break down but I can't, I won't. I have no shield. No one to hug or hide my tears behind.
I guess you could say that was her job. And with her no longer here at least they are together. Together in heaven.
In a way we know it's best. Just not preferred by us still down on earth. Weeping for a return that can never come.
Today I realize what I've lost. It may seem dramatic but it's just what feels right. I've lost everything.
Basketball isn't enough to cheer my up this time. And it never will be.
Because basketball used to be my everything. Until Kamila came into my life.
Now with her leaving it far too soon I've lost all hope and no this isn't being dramatic. It's a fact.
No one to call anymore. Cuddle anymore. Annoy anymore.
At least I still have my son as my pride and joy.
Although the son she carried with her will haunt me everyday because he is still mine and always will be.
Believing in the saying "everything happens for a reason" Is tough.
Because in tragic moments you just won't ever understand why. What was the reason I had to loose the love of my life. So soon.
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Mixed Emotions
FanfictionWhen Kam moves to LA from Chicago with her best friend Samantha, will they both meet someone that Changes their lives forever? Better yet, will they ride the roller coaster they are put on to find true love? Read to find out!
