Mixed Emotions

Ch.41-Too Much

Blake's P.O.V

SAM's funeral is in Chicago so Kam is going back tomorrow and will be there for a week. She's going to stay with her parents for a little.

DJ and I can't go to the funeral because it's on game day unfortunately. I really want to be there for Kam but, there's nothing I can do.

DJ is taking this ridiculously hard. He's still playing alright but off the court, he's a wreck. This is all honestly too much. For all of us. And it's really bad timing.

I just wish I knew why she thought that was her only option. Yes we did something fucked up but loosing your best friends trust doesn't mean kill yourself. She had a lot going for her honestly. Super intelligent girl. Just a little loopy at times.

Last night was really nice though. Just being able to hold Kam in my arms all night. It's been a while. At first I figured she wouldn't want me there but she didn't seem to mind at all. I am still going to give her some space though.

----Tomorrow----
I'm taking Kam to the airport on the way to practice today. I don't want her too go but I can't do anything about it. When she gets out the car there's some people taking pictures but I truly don't care.
I help get her bags out the trunk then hug her goodbye. I go for a kiss but she turns her head so I kiss her cheek. Honestly, I get it. I still had to try though.

Once I watch her walk inside I drive off, ignoring all the fans asking for pictures. I am just not in the mood right now.

---after practice---
"Hey man how's it going?" I said walking past DJ to our cars.

"I'm alright man. It's just a lot ya know. Yea like she fucked up okay but I still love her. I've never loved anyone like i love her." He said getting a bit teary eyed so I stopped my interrogation.

"I understand bro. I just took Kam to the airport before this" I said unlocking my door.

"But I'll see you tomorrow. Let's show out alright? It's an easy game we got this" I said closing my trunk.

"Yea man forsure. See you"

-----next day----
I told Kam to text me when she landed so considering it's the next day, I'm worried. She's just not the type to forget to text you when she says she will. But maybe she's just too busy with airport stuff and her parents I don't know.

After another hour of sitting on the couch, watching the news, still no text.
I call her and it goes straight to voicemail. What the fuck.

I just try to relax because maybe her phone died. I sit my phone away from me and just try to focus on the news.

Then I did a double take when the words

"20 dead. 37 injured in plane crash"

Of course I'm not going to loose my mind and start thinking the worse. But that's exactly what I do. I can't help but think it's referring to Kam. Fuck. I call DJ right away but no answer. Great.

After they get back from commercial they go in depth on the story a little bit.

"This just in 20 dead and 37 injured on a plane crash to Chicago last night. Reports tell us the other passengers on the plane were luckily not hurt. We will release the names of some of those who passed away upon family permission."