Lost (Mark/Darkiplier X Reader)

Chapter 48

"What do you think I should get?" 

"I don't fucking know." 

It has been a long time since I had seen Ashley in person, and I didn't this opportunity to go to waste. Getting coffee wasn't my favorite thing in the entire world, but as long as Ashley was happy, so was I. 

"What do you usually get?" Ashley asked me trying to help me decide what I should order. 

"I don't know. I barely even come here."

All of a sudden Ashley acted like a light bulb busted through her head. "I'll order for you. You go sit down. Trust me, I know the perfect thing to get you."

Ashley was too exited that she got to surprise me that I couldn't turn her down. I sighed and found a good spot to sit. The lined moved up and Ashley started to tell the clerk our order. She paid for both of our drinks and she came back to sit with me at the table that I chose for us.

"What did you get me?" I asked.

"It's a surprise, you have to wait to see what it is."

"Okay!" I put my hands up in defense. I wasn't going to argue with her. I wanted this to be Ashley's day. 

"Anyway, give me an update on your boyfriend status."

"Fucking single." She complained and looked a little sad. The break up was probably recently then. 

"I thought that he was Mr. Perfect."

"No. He's a dick. Why did I ever think that he could be the one? I was such an idiot." 

I sighed and looked into Ashley's eyes that were filled with sadness and a hint of anger. "You are not an idiot. I promise you that. You are one of the best things that has ever popped into my life. I have probably said this a thousand time, but I'll say it again. Some guy would be the luckiest man in the world to be with you." I always tried my best to cheer her up whenever she went through a break up. Loosing Mark would be the death of me, I couldn't imagine the pain that Ashley is having to go through. 

"Thanks (Y/N), but those words don't get me married now does it? I have never talked about this before, but I really want a kid. If I am a parent I would probably fuck everything up, but none the less, I want a kid. I picture it everyday what it would be like to have a little son around the house." Ashley paused and smiled as she chuckled, "For some reason I can only see myself having a son. I don't know if it is physic or something, but I know if I have a child it's gonna be a son."

It seemed so distant to have either of us getting married or even having children. I know certainly I am not ready for kids, at least not right now. I always wanted to adopt a child, but that can be expensive and at the time I was not rich working my old job. Now with Mark, whole new possibilities are opened for me. If it was the right time, we could adopt a kid if we wanted to. We could give the child a good education and have it grow up and be successful. 

If the child was gay, pan, bi, or straight, I would love them all the same. Even if they said that they didn't have a gender, they would be my kid and I would love them. 

I tried my hardest not to get sucked up in my own thoughts. This was Ashley's moment. "I want a man who can provide for my child. This might sound insane to you, but I want to wait until I get married to have a child. I want to make sure the man is there to stay and will be fully invested in giving my son the life he deserves."

"You are young. These things take time. I am sure someday you will find Mr. Perfect who will love you and your son that you supposedly already know you are going to have." I laughed to myself at the end. 

"I'm 24. Time for me us up. Most people my age already have kids. I'm a late bloomer. Maybe someday though." She looked sad again due to her age. 

Mark is 26. I guess he is a late bloomer too.  Should he be settling down and thinking about children? In his line of work I think is almost impossible to be able to raise a child. He is always so busy and never gets a break from working. Although, things have gotten better ever since he has hired an editor. She takes a lot of work off of Mark's shoulders. (A/N: Mark's editor is a girl, right? Please correct me if I am wrong.) 

I sighed knowing that I might not ever have children either. It's almost a definite no if it with Mark. But, who else could I have children with? Mark is the only guy I have my eyes set on.

Love is the feeling that I get when I see you smile.