Lost (Mark/Darkiplier X Reader)

Chapter 32

(A/N: The song above has been my life recently. It doesn't pertain to the chapter, but I love it too much. On with the story!)

Lately, I have been feeling a lot better, and happier. I'm not sure if it's the drugs I have been taking for over two months or if it's me finally being able to date Mark again.

I have been able to record more videos with Mark and surprisingly, people are beginning to like me. People have started to accept me as his girlfriend. Many comments on his videos are upset that I am with him, but they don't have the right to choose who Mark dates.

Dark has been keeping his distance from me. I would think that two months is enough time for him to just come up and apologize to me, but I guess not. When he comes and visits I turn my head the other way in disgust. Why did I ever think that I love him?

"Hey," Dark appeared in my bedroom one day. He scared means made my heart race.

I had my computer on my lap reading the comments on Mark's videos. It really gave me an ego boost when I saw comments that said they liked me. Most people are just jealous of me. Which if I was still a normal fan, I would be jealous too. "What do you want?" I asked him super annoyed.

He put his hand through his pitch black hair, "Can't we just put this shit behind us?"

"No." I said extremely firm. "You can't attempt to kill me and tell me never to wake up from a coma and be like, 'let's put this shit behind us.' Excuse me, but I am a human person and I can't be toyed around like that. So, fuck off." I got very defensive of myself.

Dark was disappointed in himself, "Is there anything I can do to make it up?" He asked super sincere.

I sighed, "Yeah, but you should have done it a long time ago." I admitted.

"Sorry-"

"Too late. I would have accepted that two months ago, but now it doesn't mean anything. You think that you can do anything to me and patch it up with the word 'sorry' and act like it's a bandaid. Your actions have consequences. Now you have to learn to face them." Honestly, I don't know why I was even giving him any attention. He deserves to be alone and go die in a ditch.

Dark sighed looking upset but a little activated with me at the same time. "Listen. What I said might not have been the nicest comment in the world, but I'm trying to help you." He walked over and sat down on my bed right next to me. I slowly adjusted my body away from him. "(Y/N), you and Mark already broke up once. Then you got back together. It is bound to happen again. You guys are just going to be off and on over and over. You want to get married, don't you?"

"To Mark?" I blushed a little bit. Marriage is a big commitment. I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet. I love Mark, but can I really spend the rest of my life with him?

"It doesn't have to be with Mark, just in general."

"Y-yeah I guess I would like to get married sometime." Thoughts of becoming a bride filled me. Walking down the isle, wearing a beautiful dress. It would be wonderful! Daydreaming about this fascinating possibility brought a smile to my face.

Dark appreciated that he saw a smile. "Good. You would want that marriage to have great success, right?"

"Yeah." With a successful marriage, that could lead to kids. Having children seems like a million miles away, but it could be a possibility for the future. It's hard to imagine having a human being belong to me. With having children there is always the possibility that something could go wrong. Perhaps a miscarriage or a mental disorder. If that happened to my child I could never forgive myself. All the blame would be out on my shoulders. There are pros and cons to children. I guess it's just a choice future me is going to have to figure out.

I went way off track and into deep thought. Dark had a hard time getting my attention back to Earth. "Then you can't be with Mark."

I immediate became offended. He is not me, he doesn't know what is best for me. All this conversation is, is a way for him to persuade me to getting together with him. "I love him." I spoke my mind straight into his face. "He is mine and you can't take him away from me. I swear that we-"

"Let me explain, please." He interrupted me. I stopped myself and let him continue. No matter how much I hate him, I am still kind enough to let him speak to me. "I already explain that you two are probably going to be an off and on again relationship. If that progresses, then what is going to happen if you get married? Will you guys want to go 'off' again? If so, that may lead into divorce. Getting a divorce tears people up until they are no longer themselves. I don't want that to happen to you. (Y/N), look at me." He rested his hand on my head and slightly moved it upwards so I would look into his eyes, "You don't have to date me. I'm not here to force you into that. I just don't want you to date Mark. It's for your own good. Do you still have some trust in me?"

I glanced into his eyes. Somehow, through the pitch black that consumes him, I found some emotion. He cares. Just because he cares about me doesn't mean I should trust him, right? "I'm honestly not sure."

"Please." Dark started to basically beg me. He was sincere about everything. He wanted to see me happy. Why was this beast acting this way? He is supposed to be violent and vicious, but he is being so nice. "I'm not going to say, 'do it for me' because that would be bullshit since I know you don't care about me. I will say this, do it for Mark. I don't want him to suffer heartbreak either."

Dark bent towards me and placed a kiss onto my forehead. He stood up and walked out of my bedroom, closing the door slowly behind him. All I was left to be faced with was his words. In his big speech, he had some valid points. The only question left is, do I trust him? If the answer is yes, then I should leave Mark. If the answer is no, then I stay. Time can only tell if I have trust in him.

Trust is easy to break, and hard to repair