Broken Fangirl [m.c]

Chapter Twenty Four

"Eli, wake up! Your phone is going nuts!" I heard Matthew yell from the other room.

I slowly propped myself up and wiped my eyes, and grabbed my phone.

"Bright." I cringed.

22 Missed Calls from Ashton

This had better be an emergency. It's
8 in the morning on my day off.

"Eli..." Ashton said.

"Why have you called me 22 times and disturbed me from my sleep?" I groaned.

"Eli, you're not going to like what I'm about to say."

"Ash, what's going on?" I start to panic.

"Michael got drunk last night. He gave in at some club, I'm so sorry, I wasn't there to stop him."

What?

He promised.

He promised he wouldn't do it again.

He betrayed me. How could he? How could he not think. Does he forget what happened last time?

I can't do it again.

I can't save him this time.

I can't...

"Eli? Are you still there?" Ashton says.

"I- I can't..." I hung up.

I checked my messages, Michael had texted me.

Text Message from Michael
"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry. It will never happen again, I promise."

Text Message to Michael
"You said that last time. You promised. You broke that promise. Who's to say you won't break the next?

Text Message from Michael
Eli, I'm so sorry. I'm an idiot, I can't believe I gave in. I wasn't thinking- there's no excuse. I'm so sorry. I love you.

Text Message to Michael
Mikey, I love you. But I can't go through what happened last time again. I just need time to myself.

I ignored his texts after that. I may be overreacting, but what happened last time...was horrible. Unbearable. I can't trust him when he's drinking, and I can't trust him fully right now after what he did before, and the fact that he drank again.

I know it's hard, when you're addicted to something and it's everywhere, of course you're going to want it. But, I just expected him to be stronger. He needs help, therapy help. I thought he had it, but maybe not since he's on tour.

I don't know. All I know is it's all too much, and I need a break from reality for awhile.

I got up out of bed and put some jeans and a ripped up t-shirt on. I brushed my hair out and let it naturally fall to my mid-back. I put my phone in my back pocket, silencing it and switching it to do not disturb, then put my shoes on, and finally grabbed my keys and walked out the door.

"Where you going?" Matt asked.

"Away." I said.

I got into my car and turned the radio up, driving, but I didn't know where to. I just followed the road.

Eventually I found an outdoor cafe, and decided to stop there. I ordered a latte and a donut, and sat at the table, admiring the view of a fountain and the sky that looked as if it was about to rain.

How sad is it that I ignore nature? That Michael is all I have? Do I even know who I am without him? I was lost when he left me. I was so broken and pretending like I was so fine. Even tried to ease the pain by making Ashton a rebound, basically using him just so somebody would maybe, possibly replace Michael's presence.

I let him become my world.

Never let a person become your world.

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a/n: I know this was SUPER super short, but this way I can get chapters out faster, possibly daily?? Anyways it's late right now and I have to wake up early sadly, again I'm sorry that these are so short but hey at least I'm writing ??? idk i suck sorry guys thanks for the support I don't deserve!!!