My not so perfect body

Chapter 35: its okay not to be okay

Before I can reply I opened my eyes and got up only to be welcomed by my empty room that was semi clean. Wiping my tears I looked down and I was on my mattress with bandages on my hands and I felt some on my feet. I didn't know what was going on and I don't remember much of last night. I tried to remember.

Seeing Ricky.
Him telling me the news.
Then I made it home.
Then....I broke down...I broke myself.....Lisa......and Skylar.

Oh. I remember now.

"you're wake."

I looked up and saw Skylar leaning on the door frame.

"Hi." I said. " did you bandage me." I asked ignoring his question.

"Yeah me and Lisa." He confirmed. I noticed his hands hiding something behind him.

"Here." He shows me what was behind him and it was Bella.

"Bella baby." I said grabbing her and placing her on my lap.

"She was hiding under the couch downstairs." My stomach dropped.

"I'm so sorry baby." I said I felt bad that she had to go thru that. "I didn't mean to scare you."

I played with her ears and her tail and I noticed Sky staring at me.

"Why are you staring at me." I said getting irritated.

"Because I want to." He responded the same shine in his eyes.

"Well you need to stop before I fuck you up." I said seriously.

He bursted laughing he literally hunched over.

I stared at him confused and I awkwardly smiled At him.

"That- oh my gosh that was funny." He said laughing thru each word.

"Thanks I think. I'm hungry."

"Here have some cereal." He gave me a tray of cereal and a side of toast and an apple.

I looked at it and back at him giving him a 'what the fuck is this' look.

"What?" He asked.

"This is cereal." I said bluntly.

"Not just cereal, it's coco puffs." He said pointing at the bowl.

"You're a coco puff." I yelled. " I want meat."

"Shut up and eat your cereal." He said smiling.

"You shut up." I said eating the toast.

"Where's Lisa" I asked after a couple minutes.

Sky sat on the chair next to me and sighed. "She thought you didn't want to see her. After you know." He said shrugging crossing his arms.

"No she shouldn't think that..." I said unsure.

"Are you okay?" He asked staring at me.

"Yeah." I said quietly zoning out.

"Are you sure." He asked not believing me.

I looked around at the mess I created then out the window. It's bright, but I feel the darkness hugging me.

I don't want to feel like this anymore, I want to feel happy again. I ran my finger through my hair and glanced at Sky.

"No I'm not," I finally admitted to him, and to myself. "And that's okay. I know I'll get better."

He stares at me and smiles warmly at me.

" I'll be back to pick you up." He said as he got and and stretched.

"What do you mean?" I said caressing Bella.

"You've been asleep for 3 days..your mothers funeral is today."

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