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Just Ask!

Those Eyes
Chapter 12: Just Ask!

Dedicated to SummerHutcherson for being with this story since 1K reads :') Thank you love! PS I adore your profile pic ;)

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Josh's POV

She doesn't like him. She was just being friendly. After all, he's not attractive or having a fucking charming British accent?

Oh who am I kidding, all of the above are just bullshit.

It's been haunting me all night and I don't know what to do. the lack of sleep has made me insanely cranky, which isn't good; when I'm not in a good mood, I'm a sensitive, foul mouthed prick.

The thing is, it shouldn't even be bothering me. I should be getting over this. She won't like me back, so why am I getting so worked up over this? I told myself yesterday, just because I have a crush on her doesn't mean she can't have a crush on someone else. Me liking her doesn't mean she's off limits; this isn't a case of dibs. This isn't an issue and eight year old would deal with.

But then again, it started when I was 8.

Maybe that's the reason why I'm so hung up on her. Maybe it's because I saw her that day, and unconsciously I've been waiting for her to come back into my life. Maybe it was those eyes that are like magnets, pulling me towards her with an unyielding force.

"Yo Joshie boy," a voice calls from behind the door. The door knob twists, the door pushes forward, revealing the brunette haired girl I call my cousin.

"Why are you here?" I ask with a tone of rudeness, even though I didn't mean it to come out that way.

"Well someone's cranky eh?" Kat nudges me as she sits on the bed alongside me. When I gave no response to her teasing me, she looks at me in a more serious manner. "Josh, what's bugging you? You know you can tell me anything."

"It's nothing" I mumble. I know I can tell her anything, but I can't help but feel secretive and keep it to myself.

"It helps to talk y'know," she pushes, "you might feel a sense of relief if you get it out of your system." I look at her eyes, and there's something about them that makes me feel compelled to reveal my secrets; it's almost as if it is some sort of truth serum or they have some sort of power that manipulates others.

Nevertheless, I tell her. I tell her about when I was 8. I tell her about the day I met her for the second time but how she thought it was the first. I tell her about being her best friend, the song we wrote, how I felt yesterday, and most importantly I tell her how I feel about Jennifer Lawrence.

She takes it in, making sounds of "hmm" and "uh huh" where appropriate, but never interrupting me at all. Once I get through everything, Kat looks at me shaking her head.

"Oh you doofus, freaking ask her out! You obviously like her, and with that history, you can't let her pass by again. You need to tell her before you regret it. Don't let her get away."

"But what if she rejects me Kat?" I ask, revealing my insecurities. Although it sounds completely cliche and cheesy, I honestly don't want to ruin our friendship. I can't let her go from my life, I need to be close to her, even if it's only as a friend. 

"How will you know if you don't try?" She says gently, "If she does reject you, you take it as a hint to move on. And Jen won't let things get awkward between you, you're her best friend, and even your feelings for her won't affect that. Just try it." 

Kat's right-  this is my chance. And if she does say no, I'll still be her friend, no matter what, I'll be in her life, and she'll still be a part of mine.

I need to do this.

I can do this.

I will do this.

-x-

AN: MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR YESTERDAY GUYS :D Here's a bit of a late prezzie!

Sorry it's a short chapter, it just felt right to end it there, but hopefully by the 6th [that's when I'm back at school] I can get you another update! No promises!

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~Nushie x