The pressure of not knowing

The Sleepover

School goes by in a blur. Apparently, I am looking sexy whatever that means but Benjamin, Aiden and Ethan keeps giving me compliments all the time. I don't even know I'm just wearing a small shirt I think the sales woman called it a crop top, and some overalls. I threw my hair in a quick bun because it's hot outside today. I even end up tossing my shoes in my bag and walk around barefoot.

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When it's time to get home, we meet George by the car. His eyes widen slightly when he sees that I am not wearing shoes but he doesn't say anything. We ask him if we can stop by my house to pick up some stuff for tonight and tomorrow.

When we reach my house, I lock us in. George went with us inside because he said he was thirsty. I showed him the kitchen and he just stayed there. Eli was in awe when she saw my room I laughed at her face and headed to my closet to find clothes for tomorrow. Eli was touching everything she said she had to. She even fell to the ground and rolled around like a dog on my carpet. When we were done packing, we went down to George who was looking at his phone leaning against the kitchen counter. He looks so at home.

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we reach their home. It was my turn to be in awe. I know my house is big but this is like a huge mansion maybe even a castle. I figured that it was because there lied more family's here. We go straight for Elis room. I wonder where George's room is.

We find all the necessary stuff. A madras, duvet and a pillow, so that we're ready to sleep when time comes. My stomach makes a noise and we both laugh, and agree to go to the kitchen for food. I meet Elis mother. She is a beautiful woman. She looks like delicious chocolate. Flawless. She is a very kind woman. She hands us some chips and crackers. She tells us she doesn't feel like making dinner tonight and ask us if it's okay to just order Pizza. Both of us nod rapidly. We head back upstairs laughing at some joke her mother told us, and decide to change into pajamas.

We begin to watch a movie. Eli is apparently mad at me because I haven't watched it before. She claims it's a classic. Well she doesn't exactly know that I was in a coma for six years because of an accident where I don't know what happened. I wonder if I should tell her. I am about to tell her because she is my best friend - my only friend - after all. However, I am interrupted by our pizza. I promise myself to tell her later.

I walk to the kitchen to get some water. Eli told me I could just take one of the bottles in the fridge, but she's too lazy to walk with me. So here I am, in the kitchen infront of who knows how many people in my pajamas that consist of very little clothes. A pair of laced shorts and a matching crop top but no bra. I look around for the water bottles in the fridge and I spot them in the bottom of the fridge so I bend over and pick one up. When I stand up straight, again, I turn around and a pair of crystal blue eyes meets mine. I yelp at the chock. ''Are you always this quiet when enter a kitchen. '' I chuckle at him and a smile materializes on his face. ''only when there is an unfamiliar silhouette bending over in the fridge. '' I smile at this and look down. On the way to the floor my eyes meets George's naked upper body, and stops there. You can see his muscles beautifully lined up on his chest and stomach. Being my 12-year-old, self inside my head I reach for his stomach and draws his lines on his body with my fingers, letting my fingers feel the lines instead of just watching them, and he lets me. Every touch tingles on my fingers, sting a little like fireworks exploding where our skin meets, but I like it. He just stands there staring at me, breathing heavily.

I pull my hand to me. ''sorry I don't know why I just did that. '' I can't look him in the eye while saying this. I feel so embarrassed. He gently grab my jaw tilting my head upwards forcing my eyes to meet his. Then he takes my hand placing it on his chest. ''It tingles. '' he says. ''I like it. '' I look at him confused. His eyes that looked like a clear crystal blue sky is now clouded with something but I can't put my finger on what is clouding them. His gaze is intense and I wish to stay there for the rest of eternity.

''Lily! '' Eli calls from her room and I tear myself away from George. ''I should get back, thank you for... well you know. Goodnight. '' our arms brush against each other as I squeeze beside him. The firework like stinging comes back. I reach Elis room. ''I thought you got lost there for a second. '' she laughs at me. '' I met George in the kitchen. '' I can feel my cheeks are tinted pink. ''uuhhh did something happen? '' I shake my head. ''well not in the kitchen any who.'' I sit on Elis bed beside her and look serious. ''I consider you my best friend. '' she lays a hand over her heart, as if she's really touched by my confession. ''it would be an honor.'' We chuckle. ''Well then I hereby declare that we shall be the best friends as long as we live.'' She laughs at me. ''with the title comes knowing stuff about each other, right? '' she nods, looking curious. ''So I have this thing to tell you. It's not really a secret but I would be happe if you didn't tell anyone. I have been in a coma for the last six years of my life and I remember nothing really of my past. I only woke up roughly a month ago. Which means that in my mind I'm basicly 12 years old. '' she looks at me absolutely chocked her hand covering her mouth and I think there is even tears in her eyes. Suddenly she just hugs me out of nowhere. I know that might have been straightforward but hey my mind is basically 12 years old. '' What happened? Like why were you in the coma, how did you get there? '' she draws herself back from our embrace but won't let go of my hands. '' Nobody knows '' she still looks chocked. ''well what a bomb to throw before bedtime'' she laughs and I'm happy she does. It eases the tension a bit. ''what a bomb to drop ever. '' I say back.

We talk a little about everything and anything. She tells me about herself, and I tell her what I remember about myself, which isn't much. We go to bed late and laughing. Goodnight George I think to myself and it feels like he answers. Goodnight Lily.

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In the morning, I just follow Elis routine with all the usual. Breakfast, brushing teeth, clothing and driving with George to school. Today he turned on the radio, surprisingly there were no awkwardness between George and me this morning but the Radio is always nice.

School goes by in a blur as always well always being the three days I've actually been in school since I was 12. Back then, the days also just blurred together. I stick to Eli I would be so lost if it weren't for her. I promise myself to show her my gratitude one way or another someday.

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Hello lovelies. I hope you like this chapter. 

characters; ( I describe the characters how Lily sees  them)

Lily paddington: Main character

Elizabeth, ELi: Lily's best friend

George: Eli's driver, friend, house sharing person. 

Louise paddington: Lily's mother 

Henry paddington: Lily's father

Benjamin: Blonde and blue eyed. (picture above)

Aiden: Brown hair grey eyes

Ethan: Red hair green eyes

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