The pressure of not knowing

Lily

(This is written from Georges POV.)

Another sickish Monday, with another 100 pre-alpha prep duties. It all sucks. I've searched for two years, I have not found a reason to smile through Mondays. I put up a good show all right but that is just not to worry the people of my pack. Life got darker and darker each day, but Mondays? Mondays meant a whole new week without her. A new beginning, without her. I need her. Problem is I don't know who she is or what she looks like.

Well here goes nothing. I stand up from my bed and start the day, the week, the Monday. I text Eli saying what time to meet me in the garage. I eat my breakfast as usual. I think about whether she will like the breakfast, I make. If she would cook me, breakfast. I put on some clothes I wonder if she would like my style. I walk to the garage and wonder if she'll like my car. I wave at Eli. She wishes me a good morning. I nod a hi at her. We get in the car and head towards the school.

Upon arrival it smells like something sweet is in the air. Kind of vanilla and lavender mixed with morning forest dew when the sun comes up everything is fresh and the mist lies beautifully in the moss. My nose paints pretty pictures I guess. I am not feared in school but people know not to talk to me unless it's important or you're my beta, Benjamin.

I miss some classes to search for this amazing scent but I can't seem to get close enough to it, so the day pretty much just goes by in a blur, expect for the constant wondering where the smell is comming from.

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It's Tuesday now and I've done nothing but homework both school and duties. However today is different. Apparently Eli has a friend that needs a ride and her house is on the way so I agree to drive them both. Besides that it's the usual morning to me. Breakfast, clothes and car.

We stop by a huge white house with white details. Eli leans in and honks the horn then get out of the car to wait for her friend. The door opens and the most beautiful creature I've ever seen comes running to the car hugging Eli. My wolf grunts of jealousy. Wait why would he do that? The girls chat for a couple of seconds before getting in. ''Hello I'm Lily'' she says and my body goes stiff. Mate. Through gritted teeth I manage to be polite. '' I'm George. ''

I speed off towards the school. The girls talk about something but I can't seem to focus on what they're saying because she smells like vanilla and lavender and the fresh morning forest. ''can I sleep with you tonight?'' the sentence make me laugh she doesn't understand it. She's such a virgin. I like the fact that she is. We stop up at the school parking lot. We get out of the car and she looks me pleading in the eye like if she was pleading for something. I don't know what she asked for but it felt like she was pleading for something else. I just nodded I wanted to give her everything. The smile on her face is priceless. She hugs me and I stiffen under her embrace. After a second of just feeling her embrace, I hug her back and sniff her scent to me. It's the purest drug. ''mine'' I whisper to myself. The embrace ends and she walks away linking her arm with Elis. I am about to grab my bag as a loud. ''He said yes!'' rips through the air. I look in her direction and I get confirmation that the outburst came from her. She turns her head around and looks at me, giving me a total elevator look.

My mate has humor. I found my mate and she has humor, she is beautiful and she is absolutely hundred percent mine. Well once I tell her she's mine or convince that I am hers. Well in the land we live in today who doesn't know that werewolf's exist? How hard can it be?

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Hello my lovelies :D

I hope you like this chapter. I'm sorry it might be a bit short.

Remember to do what you do, and be you. 

I'm not doing the best these day and I have a lot on my plate so I won't be posting so much and I don't know how many chapters are left.

Until next time my lovelies <3