Forbidden Love (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 16: Negotiation ➰

"So" Harry says, sitting me on his lap, "What's up?"

"Well..." I begin, scooping my long blonde locks over one shoulder and twisting my hips to face him

"Well?" he pushes

"Ah, forget it" I say, looking down and fiddling with my fingers

"No, I won't 'forget it' tell me what's bothering you so I can fix it"

"You're gonna get mad"

"I won't, baby, I promise"

"Well...ugh I can't!" I whine

"You can trust me, I promise" I shiver as his lips trail my jawline up to my earlobe.

I gasp and let out a low moan, but this is not the time

"Ok, well, I want to...become one of you"

Harry abruptly stop his movements and freezes in his spot, I can feel him tense and the tension seems to be radiating off his body.

Uh-oh

"I sincerely hope you mean through marriage" Harry whispers

"That's not what I mean" I explain, "I want to become...a vampire"

"No" Harry mumbles

"Harry.."

"I...SAID...NO!" he roars. I jump in shock, jumping off his lap and onto the bed, cowering slightly

"But I just..."

"NO!"

"Harry, please..."

"NO!"

"Harry, for god's sake..."

"NO!"

"FOR FUCKS SAKE HARRY WILL YOU LISTEN TO ME!" I scream, rendering him silent, and I clear my throat

"We were bound to have this conversation sooner of later. I'm human. Your vampire..." I begin but Harry cuts me off

"That's the poi-"I begin before shushing him

"Let. Me. Finish." I say briskly before continuing

"We are eventually going to have to face the fact that I will not live forever and you will. Now, I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore but if you still do then you're going to have to change me or let me grow old and DIE right before your very eyes" I see him flinch and backtrack on my wording

"I don't want to upset or hurt you but it needs to be said. As I told you before, we were bound to have this conversation sooner or later"

"I would have preferred later" Harry mutters, "Don't you think I know all of this? Don't you think I've mulled it over since the first time I met you? I don't want to live without you"

"Then change me!"

"No!" he whispers, huskily, almost pleading with me

"Then you have to let me die. I'm sorry Harry but there's no other way"

"Yes there is. When you die, I myself will die. Light myself on fire, it's so simple"

"No!"

"Harmony...I will die with you"

"But that's just it you DON'T HAVE TO! If you just change me, I..."

"I can't. I can't put you through so much pain"

"It's different if I volunteer" I state, "Besides, when word gets out about my 'special abilities' everyone will want me for theirs, they'll take me away, they'll hurt me, they could kill me"

"I'll protect you" he states as if it's SO obvious

"But you can't always be there. No matter what you think, you won't always be there. Besides, I'd much rather defend myself! I'm not a child!"

He chuckles slightly at my sass, but his face turns serious again in no more than a second.

"I can't"

"You can!" I push, "You can do it right now"

I sit on his lap and tilt my head to the side, so my neck is exposed.

"Ok. I'll make a deal with you" Harry says

"Anything!" I urge

"I will change you. If..." he says drawing out the suspense, "You marry me. Soon."

Shit.

Didn't see that one coming.

*

"M-Marry you?" I squeak and he nods, "I-I can't, one day I want to but not know I'm too young!"

"And if you become a vampire, you aren't getting any older aren't you? So why not now?"

He DOES have a point but...

"Yeah, but in the world of humans getting married at 18, means your either knocked up or rushing into things. My Dad will kill me and my Mum is worse! She married young too and she's practically drilled it into my head. DO. NOT. GET. MARRIED before your thirty! Not to mention we've only known each other for a week, making matters even worse"

"We can deal with all that and besides your parents will think your dead not long after the transformation"

"Why?"

"Well your thirst for human blood will be too strong and it'd...complicate the situation. You could kill them"

"But you can control it!" I protest

"I'm 120 years old, of course I can! By the time you learn to control it your parents will be LONG dead"

"120?" I breathe

"Yes" he states

"I'll never see my family again after the transformation?"

"No. Never, not even at their funeral"

"Oh" I whisper, beginning to cry, silently

"Argh! This is another reason why I don't want you to become one of me! Not only the immense pain of the transformation and then, controlling your thirst but when you change you can't see anyone human again, at least not for a couple 100 years"

"I can deal with that!"

"I don't think you can. Think about it Harmony! Who is human?"

"Serenity" I whisper

"And her baby. You won't get to meet her baby or see Serenity ever again"

I never thought about that

"Okay, listen. Listen to me. YOU are my world. YOU matter to me. YOU keep me from dying. YOU make my world spin. YOU make me feel alive. YOU love me like no else ever has. Your the only one I love more than anyone on this Earth and I will love you forever whether it be as a friend or a girlfriend or even...a wife. I know that sounds crazy because I've only known you a short while but if being married to you means I become a vampire, I don't care, I'll do it because there is nothing more I want then to spend my life with you. Even if that means never seeing anyone human again"

"Maybe we can do this...you wait for 5 years or so until you reach my age when I was turned,, which is 22 by the way and then that way you will be able to meet serenity's baby at least for a short time and then we can get married in 2 years"

"Sounds about right to me" I agree, kissing him, wrapping my hands in his curls to pull him closer to my face

This is where I want to be.

This is who I am.

And this is who I will stay.

Regardless of the consequences.