The Beginning to Our End

Chapter 24

Song: "Suckerz" by Blackbear

HOLA I'VE RETURNED, I'M A NEW WOMAN WOOHOO

SPOV

2:45 PM

*TIME SKIP*

(mostly cuz my old plan for this is gone so this chapter will be somewhat dramatic and mysterious thanks to a dope album that I won't name that sparked a new bit of excitement within my brain)

I walked into the kitchen, my footsteps echoed through the house. I was alone today since everyone had something to do. I sat on the counter thinking to myself where Ally might be... not like I should go and find her. She always comes home when she's ready, when she's hungry, or when she's just tired of being outside. It's been a long time since we got Ally back but she's different. Nobody else seems to notice it, they say I'm just overreacting when I'm questioning why she doesn't want McDonald's, a burger or IHOP for every other meal. But I know Ally and something has changed, I'm not crazy I'm seemingly the only sane one here. I was pulled out of my thoughts by the sound of the front door closing softly. Inside I'm silently hoping its Ally so we can talk, or I can talk and she can just sit there staring at nothing.

A month. It's been an entire month since she's looked in my direction for more than 5 seconds, held a conversation with me. She stay's out all night, then comes back at sunrise like she never left. She doesn't come back drunk or anything; for a little while, she seems happy relieved like a weight has been lifted off her shoulders. She tries to hide it before anyone sees but you can tell by the way she walks into the room. Something out there in the world makes her happy and it may be none of my business, but I want to know what it is. I need to know if somebody who isn't me is making her happier than I can at this point in our lives. I'm pulled from my thoughts as I feel someone staring at me to my right. It's Ally watching me silently I'm expecting her terribly hidden happiness to shine through but instead, she looks like she's at a loss for words. I can tell she wants to say something but probably doesn't know how to say it so I decided to help her along.

3:10 PM

S- Ally, is everything alright?

She stays silent still deep in thought, she walks over to me grabs my hand and takes me to the living room so she can set me down on the couch. She sits next to me but not too close, just far enough so I have space.She stares at the ground in silence her hands clasped together, forearms resting on her knees. She had the classic bad news position going on that you usually see in the movies it made me feel uneasy about what's to come, but I was also anxiously craving any conversation from Ally at all. I watched her while I listened to my heart suddenly beat 50 times faster than it's supposed to. She took a deep breath rubbed her face with her hands before looking me directly in the face.

A- We need to talk.

My breath hitched at her words and my throat went dry, as I swallowed on instinct and I felt my heart drop to my stomach. Even though I felt I was mentally prepared for this, I'm not. I shouldn't be fearing to have a conversation with my wife, and I damn sure shouldn't be craving any form of conversation with her as badly as I do now. Yet here I am sitting on our living room couch just like we used to. The only difference being the tense and heavy atmosphere around us, that I'm sure can be felt outside our front door and down the street to innocent pedestrians doing their daily errands.

S- What do you want to talk about?
A- I know you've noticed how I have been...distant to say the least. I want to apologize for that, I had a lot of stuff on my mind and I didn't want to bother you with my thoughts and personal issues so I kept them to myself hoping that I could just ignore them and move on but they caused me to isolate myself for a long time and that's not healthy.