{ethan grant dolan}
your pov
♡
i miss you
and you're lying right beside me, sleeping
but you're turned away from me
and i don't recognize you
we haven't talked in days
nothing i say seems to interest you anymore
why are you pushing yourself away from me?
i love you
listening to your steady breaths is the closest i've felt to you all week
and that scares me
nothing's the same
you're different
we're different
and i can't help but feel that we're worlds apart
you aren't your usual self
you don't kiss my cheek when you come home
you don't say you love me before bed
instead you simply glance at me
dismissing my presence
you come to our room late at night,
only after the sounds of my cries stop echoing through the walls
so that you don't have to address it
you sigh as you view the dried tears on my cheeks and the sad expression left on my face as i sleep
what happened to us?
i love you
i'm still awake
just as i have been for what seems like forever
trying to figure out where it all went wrong
how i lost you
why we're so disconnected
i wonder if you still love me
i know i should confront you
but i doubt you'd acknowledge me
i doubt you'd listen
i doubt you'd care
by the way
your friends have noticed, too
they see the way you shrug me off
and they ask me if i'm okay, if we're okay
but i tell them not to worry about it
because i already do
i'll fall back asleep eventually but
when i wake up in the morning
i know that you'll already be gone
leaving me without a goodbye
it's been like this for almost a month
and what scares me is that i never know if you'll come back
i still don't understand how we got in this situation
i just want to get through to you
i want us to go back to the way we were
i want you back
please don't hurt me like this
please don't do this to me
please don't be so distant
i love you
-
there will be a part two
