YOUNG VOLCANOES

twentyfive

I woke up as soon as I noticed the dim light of dawn reflecting against my eyelids. I opened my eyelids, noticing hoe the vibrant yet low yellow hit through my window and illuminated my room. I noticed Felix's figure besides me in bed. He laid resting and soft besides me. I remembered how worried I'd been of him last night. I'd been scared for him but he was safe now. I exhaled in relief.

I didn't want to wake him up and so I swiftly got out of the silky sheets and decided to head to the kitchen. I needed some chocolate milk to wash down the horrible and stressing flavor from last night off my throat.

Alex's acussations still pounded through my head and I hated it.

As soon as I stepped in the kitchen, I noticed Alex's lurking figure, he was searching through the cabinets.

I was mad at him.

I am mad at him.

But I was too tired to ignore the messy sound he was creating at 5:47 am and not try and put a stop to it.

"The cocoa puffs are on the last left cabinet" I informed him.

He stumbled at the sudden sound of my unknown presence. He looks me up and down.

His appearance the classic messy hair, soft dark circles and grey sweatpants. "Thanks" he nodded and went on to look where I'd told him.

I continued on to search for the almond milk and noticed that the chocolate mix was at the other side of the kitchen. I was about to make my way past Alex.  He was devoted in making his cocoa puffs but he accidentally stepped back and our bodies stumbled together.

I was too sleepy to overthink. I put my hand on his chest and pressed, in an action that was supposed to inform him to get out of the way. Instead he stood there, looking at my hand pressed against his warm chest.

He softly grabs my wrist "Seriously?" He asks. "What?" I ask and rub my eyes with my available hand. "Are you really going to try and hit on me at 5am?" He asks.

Like caffeine the comment wakes me up, my eyes open up and I straighten my back. My eyebrows furrow and my heart begins to pump. "I was just trying to get you to move out of the way, jesus fuck" I snap at him. "By putting your hand on my chest?" He asks.

"Why are you obsessed with the idea that I'm inlove with you?" I ask in a mean whisper. Still doing an effort to not wake up Felix.

He opens his mouth but I shake my head and grab his hand. "Alex, listen to me. I like you...I'm sorry that I kissed you earlier tonight and I'm sorry for everything I've done that's annoyed you, but we live together now and I can't live with someone who's going to make me feel bad about everything that I do. Just bear with me and stop making me feel bad for having feelings" I state in a sudden word vomit.

I let go of his hand and walk towards the cabinets to continue and search for my chocolate mix, giving him my back and standing on my tippy toes to reach it for the ridiculously big pack of chocolate mix.

I feel him behind him, I feel his energy and his body heat. I feel as he leans, making his body swiftly touch against mine as he grabs the chocolate mix for me and hands me it.

"Thanks" I murmur in a sudden blush and he nodds. I'm about to continue and get my goddam chocolate milk but I don't make it far before he takes the chocolate mix out of my hands and sets it aside. "Why?" I begin to ask.

He presses his body against mine and my waist is leaned against the counter.

He looks at me intensly, goosebumps rise on me and my heart becomes a firing machine gun. He brushes my hair behind my ear and looks at me.