Didn't we almost have it all? [Completed]

Epilouge

Epilouge

12 months later (again)

I had just celebrated my one and a half year anniversary as sober.

Edie didn't know I was here, it was her first concert after her one year break. Sadie and Jessica had helped me get in. During our two years apart both of them had kept me updated on her.

I had felt ridiculous before we got together, going to her concerts, buying her records. Watching her interviews on youtube like a true fan girl. I had even stooped down to the level of reading fan fiction once, as I had found one writing about the two of us together. The rest of my band had teased me endlessly about it, and at one point there had even been a drinking game based on how many times a day I mentioned Edie.

After we actually started to get to know each other Sadie claimed I pined for her, and she was actually the one to suggest I should ask Edie if they wanted to open for us. When she said yes, I was beside myself. The only time I have been happier was when she told me she loved me, and the christmas when I asked her to marry me.

Of course like with most good things in my life they didn't last. And I could only hope that I had turned it around for real this time. But like with any disease, you can relapse. I think the biggest step for me apart from admitting I had a problem was to realize it is a disease that I can't control 100 %. As long as I am aware and don't lie to myself, I hope I will be fine.

My mom had been almost as heartbroken as me, when I had told her Edie had broken our engagement. But both of my parents had supported me all the way through rehab, as had my band and Jessica. Even Tom, Matt and Edies mom had kept in touch and they all had visited me in rehab at least once. Right now I think my mom in a way is grateful that Edie broke my heart. Because even if I had hid my problems well from them, they now knew the extent to my abuse and in retrospective they could see that I wouldn't have made it.

A big part of my recovery had been writing on my solo album, a few of the songs that ended up on it were songs I wrote while Edie and I still lived together, and E was the track she sang on. Everyone knew every single song on it was about Edie even though I had seen her deny it on TV that she thought it was. I had even pushed Sadie to give her a copy that held a secret note in it. However I never heard anything from her about it.

Right now I was here to surprise her, much like I had done in Spain. I wasn't going to go onstage or make a big spectacle about being here, I knew she wouldn't like it.

Once again was I carrying her engagement ring in my pocket, and I had been for almost exactly a year, since she gave it back to me through Sadie. When I received it I was both glad she hadn't thrown it away and sad that she didn't want to keep it as a memory. In a way it gave of the signal that she was moving on.

As her set was drawing nearer to its end I got more and more nervous, thankfully I had Edies mom and sister with me as support. They were the ones who had ultimately made the call to me that it would be a good time to get back in touch with Edie. They knew I had been patiently waiting.

Whilst the crowd was screaming for her for an encore Edie started walking towards us where we were standing at the side of the stage. I knew the minute she set her eyes on me, as I could feel a surge in my entire body, but also because there was as if a light had been lit behind her eyes.

I knew she was happy to see me, but I could hardly believe it as she went straight up to me and wrapped her arms around me. How many times hadn't I dreamt of hugging her close like this.

Nothing however topped the words that came out of her mouth.

"I love you."

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