The night before had been a mistake. At least that's what Jaela told herself as she slipped her pajama bottoms back on after her shirt. No one had to know of this, especially not Blaine. She felt bad that she had to do this to Jem but it was for the majority's happiness. It was a moment of weakness, Jem was there to comfort her. He sure was confusing but he was someone she has been able to come to all year so far.
Jem was sprawled out on his bed and had nothing on, the blanket that covered his tush and Jaela grimaced. She had just lost her virginity... that was something she hadn't thought about and luckily Jem was gentle and careful. It didn't hurt but now she was afraid that Blaine wouldn't love her anymore. If she fell like that, into someone else's bed, every time they had a downfall, she wouldn't want herself. Jem turned over. His face so peaceful and she couldn't imagine leaving him while he slept so soundly.
"Jaela?" Jem said awaking.
"What?" Jaela said trying to soften her tone, but still failing. Jem sits up.
"What's wrong? Last night wasn't great for you?" He says his tone was hurt. She blushed because it felt amazing, she had never felt anything that could compare to what they did the night before, but she wasn't pleased that she did that, so soon and in the spur of the moment.
"I just wanted it to be more... special" he looked down.
"I get it, I'm sorry. Was it your first time?"
"Yea, and I kinda expected it to be kind of different but at least it wasn't painful, like all the sites said. It was actually great, you were great." Jem didn't need that reassurance, he had done this before and had gotten compliments of the sort. He just didn't want Jaela to regret this, it was a great night and he didn't take advantage he had asked her and she nodded, he made sure not to be too rough. He had lost his virginity his freshmen year too.
"I'm sorry, Jem, it's fine, it's just I love Blaine. And I came here for comfort but not for that kind of comfort if you get what I mean. Could you please take me home?"
Jem nodded and sat up, he threw his sweats on, not bothering to cover anything; she had seen all of him already. They left his house, luckily his parents had already left. Although he didn't know why, it's the weekend. Jem drove Jaela home and he tried not to ask her. He just wants to know, if he actually meant anything to her. He was the one to initiate but she didn't stop him, maybe she does feel something but her time spent with Blaine has taken over. Jem had been nothing but sweet to her and he would think she would like him by now. He just continuously bobbed his head to the Taylor Swift song playing, something about dreams and remembering her. He wasn't focusing on that.
When Jaela seen her house, she was reminded that her mum would be here. She wasn't able to work yet, her knee was still healing so she'd be here, most likely wondering where she had been. Jada began to nibble her nail.
"What's wrong?" Jem asked noticing her worrying.
"Nothing, it's just my mum is home and I didn't tell her I was leaving last night and I've..." she pauses as tears stroll down her face. "I've betrayed my mother, she will never let me out again, especially not with a guy."
Jem still couldn't understand how she could be thinking of Blaine after the moment they shared. Maybe it was only special to him, but he didn't want to sadden her so he kept quiet and listened to her groan about another guy. It's not like her mum would let her date Blaine anyway. Apparently he's too old.
"Would you like me to come in with you" fuck why'd he ask he doesn't wanna go in. He wants to go back home and sleep, it's saturday!
"No I think that'd make it worse." She pauses."um thank you for last night..." she adds not sure what to say.
"Yea no problem." Jem hadn't been notorious for sleeping with girls and not actually dating them. He had only had sex 3 times with his freshmen girlfriend, Kimberley (twice) and once with Jaela now. He hadn't even regretted doing it with Kimberley, but he wished the night had happened different last night. Maybe with an exchange of a few words she could have fallen for him. He'd never know.
Jem left as Jaela got out of his car. She walked up to her door leaving just this thin piece of wood, actually it was pretty thick but nothing was that thick when it was between her and her angry mother. She knocked.
The door swung open.
"Where were you?! You don't get to just sleep over places without me knowing!" Jaela's mum looked like she hadn't slept all night and was still in her bathrobe.
"I went over to" she had to think of any name that would make sense. "Tory's for homework last night and it took awhile so she decided to let me stay. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was just getting used to not having to since you were in the hospital. I promise to ask you next time." Jaela's mum considered this, and looked into Jaela's eyes to clue into how she felt. Jaela's mum shrugged and backed out of the doorway so her daughter could come in. Jaela smiled, her lie had worked. She quickly ran to her room and plopped on her bed, staring at the ceiling. She remembered how different his felt, how good it felt with him on top of her, how her curves went along with the rhythm of his body in hers. She didn't regret it and that's what worried her the most. Shouldn't she regret it, wasn't she in love with Blaine? She began to cry. Where did she lie? She sometimes wanted Blaine and other times she was falling into other boys' beds. She lied there crying and staring until the night. Then she got under her covers and slept. Luckily that's all that happened that night. Blaine continued to ignore her.
Jaela: what are you up to?
She tried casual talk rather than her usual:
Jaela: why are you ignoring me?
Then all of a sudden her mind drifted back to Jem and the night before.
