Wanted (Interracial) (Complete)

Chapter 31: I Don't Trust Your Sub-conscience

*~! Tiana's POV !~*



I stood there, seeing my best friend and husband squared up to one another.

"What's going on?" I said, looking around the quiet room. No one mumbled a thing, as Antonio and Warren glared at each other.

"You're in my house," Antonio grumbled. I looked over to Vanessa, and she nodded. We both walked to our spouses, pulling them apart.

"Antonio, what are you doing?!" I whispered with an attitude. I really prayed they wouldn't make me choose between my best friend, and my husband.

"He disrespected me in my own damn house," he grumbled, looking towards Warren. I pulled him with me upstairs, and into our room.

"What happened?" I pouted, tugging him to sit down on the bed, and I stood between his legs.

"Babe, if you want me to think clearly, I wouldn't stand there," he shook his head. I blushed, and sat next to him, grabbing his hand.

"Antonio, really, what went on?"

"We were laughing and making jokes about everybody, and he brought up the thing that happened the other day," he frowned. "Warren is supposed to be my friend, and my brother. He's really the only one I have left since Matt fucked up."

"I know. But baby, you can't just snap like that. You're scaring me," I held my head low. He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into his lap.

"Why are you scared of me?"

"Because... Your emotions are shifting so fast, and I just can't help but think-" I started.

"Think what? Baby, you know I would never put my hands on anyone in this whole family. Even if it got a little heated between War and I, I would never hit him. There's nothing to be scared of... Are you still shaken up over that thing?" He grimaced. I had one or two options: tell half the truth, or the whole. Half would be that I was still a little skeptical, but not scared. And the whole would be that I am scared as hell.

I went with the whole.

"Antonio, I'm scared as hell. I wish I could forget about it like you want me to, but I just can't!" I whined.

"So, you don't trust me?" He countered.

"Yes, I do," I replied.

"If you trusted me, you wouldn't be scared. I said I wasn't, and I won't."

"Yeah, but how am I supposed to know that," I looked away.

"You should believe me. You don't trust me Tiana," he moved me off his lap with a sigh. I was silent, really thinking about what he asked me. I do trust him, it's just I don't trust his sub-conscience, I convinced myself, and told him just that.

"But, I wasn't in my subconsciousness right then. I was perfectly fine. I'll go apologize," he started for the door, before he turned and looked at me. "I really can't believe you would think I would do something like that," he shook his head and left.


I really hadn't meant to hurt his feelings like that, but I had to be honest. We never lied to one other, not that I know of, and I intended on keeping it that way. Had our relationship been based on lies, we wouldn't be here. We wouldn't have any children. We wouldn't be in New York. And we sure as hell wouldn't be married. Honesty is the best policy, and I believe that wholeheartedly. Nothing good comes from lies, so there for, we wouldn't produce any.

After Antonio and Warren apologized to one another, the party was back to normal. Even Lexi was having a good time. She told everyone she was pregnant, and we all cheered. It was great to see her with a smile on her face, even with only a few hours of seeing her without one. I wasn't used to seeing her pout and upset. She was always in a good mood, Matt and her son contributed to her happiness. But now that half of her was gone, she was reluctant to let her smile show.

"You okay?" Antonio asked as he jumped on the counter, next to where Vanessa, Lex and I were preparing dinner.

"Am I?" I countered with a shrug, throwing some pepper into a boiling pot.

"I don't know, are you?" He smirked.

"I am not about to do this with you," I sighed.

"I'm sorry baby! Please forgive me! I love you so much! Oh, baby please!" He screamed in a horrible tune, and I wasn't sure what or who he was trying to imitate. As much as I didn't want to, I cracked a smile. He leaned and pressed a kiss to my lips.

"I hate you, Marconi," I scoffed with a sly smirk.

"Dawh, that's cute. But we all know you love me," he chuckled, hopping off the counter. I watched him leave, thinking of how much I loved my man. He was right, everyone knows how in love I am with him.

"You are so sprung," Brianna giggled as she entered the kitchen with mom.

"Shut up, Bri!" I giggled.

"Awh, you accept me enough to give me a nickname?!" She squealed, hugging me around my waist. She was tiny, maybe 5'3, but she was as pretty as mom. They were practically twins, based on their looks.

"Well, you're my little sister," I laughed.



The dinner went well, and we, once again, had a successful family day.

"Bye daddy," I hugged his neck as tight as I could, his chuckles vibrating my chest.

"Bye sweetie. Hey, I wanna go somewhere with you next weekend. Are you free?" He cocked his head. "We haven't had a daddy/daughter day in a long time. It'll just be the two of us," he promised.

"Yes, daddy, I'm free. What's the occasion?" I cocked my head.

"I think you know..." He trailed. I thought about next Saturdays date, and quickly remembered it would be the thirteenth year anniversary of my mother's death.

"Yeah... Well, at least we won't spend it sad, right?"

"Of course not. We're both happy. And even with her gone, it's not like we can bring her back. We did everything we could. This year, I want it to be a happy thing. Just me and you, laughing about the different things she used to say, or did. It'll be fun, baby, I promise."

"Good. I will see you tomorrow, then, when you come to the company," I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"I love you babygirl," he kissed my forehead before walking out my door, and me closing it behind him. He was the last one to leave, after we had Aiden and Krystal put to bed. They fell asleep as soon as their skin hit their sheets. That's how you know it was a good day.


I jumped when I turned to find an eager Antonio standing behind me. I glared at him, knowing exactly what he was waiting on.

"Just a minute. I'm gonna talk to the twins and Lexi really quick, and I promise I'll be up there," I laughed.

"Okay!" He scurried up the steps with that stupid ass grin.




I trailed to Kendal and Kylie's room, only to find them asleep also. Their books were scattered all over their beds, and I chuckled at their parted lips, and messy hair.

"You okay?" I smiled sadly at Lexi.

"I'm- I'm alright. I really haven't figured out how to deal with it tomorrow, at the office," she sighed, and I took a seat on her bed.

"Yeah, well, you could come to Smithson with me tomorrow, and we could go in together. Where's your ring?" I frowned down at her hand. Christopher was snoring next to her.

"In my purse..." She trailed.

"So there really is nothing left of you two?" I questioned, grabbing her hand in mine.

"I don't know, T. I just couldn't believe that he would do that to me, in my own home, while I was less than fifty feet away. I should've never let her stay," Lexi shook her head.

"Sweetie, I know this is the last thing you want to hear, but marriage is supposed to be forever. Matt is your husband. You can't let a silly assistant come between a forever bond," I tried to reason.

"Yeah, but it's not just a silly assistant, it's an illegitimate baby too," she countered. "That kid would have my child's father, and that's not okay. I mean, I know it's selfish, and it didn't choose its parents, but I can't help but feel that way." I sighed. I didn't know what to say.

"Well, just think about it before filing. I would hate to see Christopher or you unhappy," I kissed her cheek before saying goodnight, and coming upstairs.





*~! Antonio's POV !~*


* next day *




Yesterday, Tiana said Lexi would come in with her, which I was grateful for. I wasn't prepared to deal with either a screaming match, or to have tissues pollute the office.

I slowly walked into Dawn's cubical, trying not to make a scene, and thankfully, no one on this floor was here yet. Their shift wouldn't start for another fifteen minutes, and I knew she was here to see if she could mend her and Matthew's relationship. He told me he cut it off when he stepped into my office for a few minutes earlier. I knew I couldn't be mad at him forever, and he knew he wouldn't be able to make it without Lexi nor Christopher. So with that, we reunited.

"Hey, can I talk to you for a minute?" I sat across from her. It would pain me to do this, especially when she had a baby on the way and had gotten evicted, but I had to. It was the policy at headquarters, and as top exec, it was my job. I had to fight and plead for them to let Matthew stay, and I barely got that approved. I still have no idea how they found out about this all, and I thought personal life and professional is to be kept separate.

"Sure," she flashed a flirty smile. This girl was unbelievably desperate.

"Uhm, you know you violated headquarter's policy. I haven't been here for long, but I know the rules and what you did was wrong," I sighed.

"Yes, I'm aware. What are you trying to say, Mr. Marconi?" She licked her lips, and I cocked my head in confusion.

"Okay, I'm lost. So, ruining one family wasn't good enough?" I spat like venom.

"Apparently not, you are sexy as hell," she purred.

"And he's also my husband, so back off. You, Ms. Shafter, have violated headquarters' policy, and you are now fired. Gather your things and leave," Tiana came and dismissed her, then walked off like nothing had happened with Lexi following. I smirked as I watched my wife and who is basically my sister leave with small laughs coming from the both of them.

I decided to stop in Lexi's office, just to check up on her. Her and Matthew used to share an office, but after everything, I had to move his to a floor below us. I walked in, silently shutting the door behind me, and observing how she sat at her desk. I hated seeing Alexa like this: head in hands, tears streaming, face red.

"Hey," I whispered, coming to sit in front of her desk. She laughed darkly a little before looking up at me.

"How stupid could I have been? I mean, everything was right in front of me. How did I not see it?" She shook her head, adding more sobs to the mix. So much for not wanting tissues polluting the office.

"Look, Lex, you had no idea. None of us did, and there was no way to know. He was always with us, so I don't know when he found the time. But other than that, you're still young. I'm sure there's someone just waiting on you," I nodded.

"Yeah, I'm young. Who doesn't want a twenty-six year old, pregnant mother of one, who is soon to be divorced and a CIA exec, right? It's unrealistic for me to even think about another relationship," she scoffed in her accent.

"Awh, come on Alexa. You're still gorgeous, and you're successful! You can move on, and find someone better than him. I mean, I know he's my best friend but -"

"I don't think you understand. There is no moving on from Matthew, he was my Matthew! There is no finding someone better, because he was the best. There is no dating! I still love him, Antonio. I love him with all my heart, and it's hurting so bad to know I married someone who is a cheat, and told me to kill our child. And the worst part about it is that we will have two children, meaning I will have to see him frequently. Seeing the man that I married and broke my heart isn't ideal. I won't even allow myself to hate him, or keep my kids away from him. I don't know why I can't just break his heart like he did to mine, I love him way too much. He was my best friend! Hell, it took him three years to ask me out, and it was so cute when he did it. How do you move on from that?! I just can't. I'll die single and alone with my only two kids," she sobbed.

"I'm so sorry Alexa," I sighed and stood, pulling her into my arms. She sobbed into my chest, and I just cooed, telling her it'll be okay. "If it helps, I still love you, me and Tiana always will," I smiled as she looked up at me.

"Thanks. I can always count on you two," she wiped the tears away, and fanned her face.

"I'm guessing this isn't a good time..?" Matthew peeked his head through her office.

"Matthew, I don't want to talk to you," she snapped, and suddenly the tears were replaced with rage.

"Baby, I still love you, just please," he pleaded, walking towards her. I wasn't going to leave, just incase things got out of hand.

"Stop it. Stop the lying. You do not love me! If you loved me, you wouldn't have slept with her, and I've told you this. She's not even cute!" She scoffed, and I nodded, agreeing with her.

"I know, babe. It was just- I was trying to get you to sleep with me, and you just wouldn't!" He screamed back.

"Oh hell no. This isn't my fault, Matthew. Tell me one thing," she started.

"Anything, I'll give you whatever just to have you and our son back," he pleaded.

"That's not what I said, I said tell me one thing. Did you have a relationship with her?"

"What do you mean?" He cocked his eyebrow.

"I mean, did you all see each other outside of sex? Did you bring her around my son?"

"No! I only saw her at the office! I didn't even flirt with her. We just did it, and we were done. Whenever she was around me, we barely spoke. I never once brought her around Christopher, hell, I didn't even take her anywhere! I want you babe. Come back to me," he pleaded again.

"Alright..." She trailed.

"Alright? What does that mean?"

"That means I can somewhat feel better knowing you all weren't together," she sighed.

"Does that mean you're not filing? Please don't leave me," he moved closer, but I lifted my eyebrow to him, telling him not to touch her.

"Hell no. We. Are. Through. I'll see if we can be friends, for the sake of our children, but I can't have you around to get my blood pressure up, and risk my kid. Stay away from me, and you had better count your stars for me even letting you see Chris. Get out of my face," she spat. Matthew's eyes filled with water, and he opened his mouth before closing it, and walking out.

"I guess I'll see you later... Love you Lexi," I nodded before leaving.

Tiana was sitting at her desk, signing more plans, and I smiled. I hadn't seen her all day except for when she fired Dawn. I waltzed over to her desk, and swiveled her chair around to face me.

"Where'd you go this morning?" She frowned, and I chuckled.

"I came here. I needed to do some extra work, and I didn't want to wake you up. I'm sorry," I leant over and pressed a kiss to her lips.

"I missed you, I don't like coming to work without my kiss," she pulled my face back to hers as I slipped my tongue in, invading her mouth.

"Is that why you fired Dawn like that?" I smirked, and she scoffed, looking away.

"She's the reason my best friend is sad, and I hate seeing Alexa like that."

"I know, babe, but it was sexy as hell," I kissed her again, before she slightly pushed me away.

"You are a sad, sick, man," she giggled, I pulled her up, and sat down before tugging her in my lap.

"So what do we do? I mean, Matthew's been my best friend since college, and Alexa is like my sister. I know you are close with both of them, too," I asked.

"I don't know... We can't stop talking to them all of the sudden. I think we've handled it pretty well. I just wish this wouldn't have even happened, you know?"

"Yeah, he messed up really bad. I just can't figure out why he can't give me nor Alexa a definite answer to why," I sighed.

"Did you take your pill?" Tiana questioned, leaning my head to the side with her small hands.

"Ugh, no..." I grumbled barely above a whisper, reaching into my pocket, and taking out the pill. I swallowed it down with a little water she had on her desk.

"Taking your medicine gets you good things," she nodded, and straddled my lap.

"Oh yeah? Like what?" I smirked as her arms wrapped around my neck.

"Just wait and see," she whispered and started on the buttons of my shirt.



A/N: UPDATE, lol. I don't think I'll be able to wrap this up by chapter 35, so we'll just see where I stop, lol.

ANYWAYS, you guys, i need comments! I barely got any comments on the last chapter, so our goal for this chapter will be 7 comments, and I'll update by Thursday? Yeah?

DONT LET ME DOWN GUYS. Love y'all.

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~CasuallyMe