The Secret's Out

Chapter 1

As we were coming down from our laughter, I smiled looking at her laying there in all her perfectness and knew what I wanted. I leaned in and just when I was about to kiss her my alarm blared loudly waking me up.

"God dammit!" I yelled, "Every freaking time!!" I roll over and shut my alarm off then stare at the ceiling. I debate whether or not to get up or just to fall back to sleep but I have to see her. I need to see her beautiful smile and hear her laugh at something I said. If only she knew. But she doesn't know that I love her, and she honestly never probably will. It hurts thinking I want somebody I can't have, but that's just life I suppose.

Hi, my name's Samantha Carter and I'm crushing hard on my best friend. Liliana Fields. We clicked almost instantly and I fell for her the second I talked to her and got to know her. There is nobody on this green Earth that makes me feel the way she does. When I'm with her, I feel like I'm home and that is honestly one of the best feelings a person could possibly have.

Every night though, it's a similar dream. We're hanging out and I lean in to kiss her and before that ever happens I wake up. Every. Single. Time. It pisses me off that I never get to kiss her. Yes I know it's a dream, but that still doesn't mean that I don't want to kiss her because trust me, I really want to.

In the end though, even though I may want to kiss her I know for a fact she would never want to kiss me. Liliana only dates boys, meaning she's straight. While I on the other hand, have dated boys but no since middle school. I had hoped that I could try to get her out of my head by doing so. I mean after all, who wants their best friend crushing on them? Especially when you're the same gender. Nobody that I can think of, especially not Liliana.  

Getting ready for school went by in a blur. Next thing I know I'm out the door hopping into my beat up Impala (what can I say, I love my car). Starting the engine, I turned the radio on and my favorite station started playing, 105.5 Country Central. After letting the car warm up, I buckled up and was ready to go. Next stop Hell. Oh wait, I mean high school.