Angel- C.H

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Hey guys! I know some are y'all might be pissed at me for not updating in months. I'm so sorry for that. I haven't been myself sometimes. Like mentally. I've been having a rough time with my depression. But I'm gonna try to update more. I'm on poetry club in my school. We're doing spoken word, and I made a poem which I  worked really hard on, and I thought. " I haven't wrote in so long." So I'm gonna try my absolute best. And I want to thank y'all for 1k reads! I love y'all my little monkeys.

Billie
"Dear private journal,
Chemo went well, I guess. I've been doing a little bit better. My asthma hasn't been really bad, which Is really good. I've been better on my depression. But I have had many anxiety attacks, because of my insomnia and my mum and dads death. I really miss them.  It's been really rough. Especially on Nate. He was extremely close to mum and dad. He's trying to stay strong for me, but I want him to stay strong for him self as well.

Oh, If you're wondering about Calum. He had to go back on tour. We still talk a lot. I miss him though. I feel bad though. I feel like i scared him somehow. We're still together if you're wondering.

Well that's a little update, I'll talk to you later."

I close my journal and sigh. It's been about six months since I had my asthma attack and about eight since Calum left. I haven't really talked to anyone. Even Maddy, she's been kinda distant a lot lately.

As I get up, I hear a knock on my door. " hey, Billie. It's Nate, can I come in?" He says with a hint of excitement.

"Yeah." I reply.

Nate comes in the room with a big smile. "You won't believe who just called me!"

"Who called you Nate?" I smile with a laugh.

"The hospital!"

"And is that a good thing?" I question with a hint of fear in my voice.

"Oh! Yeah! They said they have good news and they asked us to get there right away!"

"Did they say what kind of good news?" I reply quickly. I'm actually a little bit scared to be honest.

"No? But good news is good news, isn't it?" He replied with a smile. A smile I haven't seen in so long.

" I guess you're right. "I laugh with a smile.

"Then, what the hell are you doing? Get dressed!" He smiles and leaves the room quickly.

Dear God, please let this be good news that will help me out.

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Few hours later..
"Well Miss Night, we were doing some test. And we noticed that the breast cancer cells."

It's like everything went quiet. I wanted to hear something. Something that will change my life.

"There are no signs of the breast cancer cells." The doctor smiled.

I felt like my heart stopped. I felt the tears at the brim of my eyes. I felt Nate attack me in a tight hug. My whole world stopped. I was free. But then the doctor said something else.

"But they might come back. We also saw a early tumor forming. We are glad we caught this, because we wouldn't want it to grow even more. We were going to ask you, if we can do the surgery?"