What society wants (Xiuhan fanfic)

cafeteria (Minseoks POV)

Warning: bullying is talked about in this chapter. If you're not comfortable with bullying, please don't read this chapter. If you're not comfortable with bullying you shouldn't read this fan fiction because there will be bullying in almost every chapter, and the bullying I would say is pretty bad. 

Lunch time came around and like how everyone ate in the cafeteria, I didn't...or more like I couldn't. Not like I had no where to sit and no one to sit with. I just knew for a fact I'd  be bullied in there. The cafeteria at lunch time is a bullies number one target place for their victim. Especially for bigger kids like me, the cafeteria is a 'no zone.' 

well I usually wouldn't eat in the cafeteria because I normally always bought my lunch before school started but I forgot to buy my lunch this morning...so I have to buy my lunch from the cafeteria.

Now I had to enter the war zone which everyone calls 'the cafeteria.' I haven't been in the cafeteria ever since school started...and considering it's the middle of the year, I'm terrified. I don't know how anything is set up in there, which tables are taken and which ones aren't. 

I would have totally skipped lunch today if I had breakfast, but considering how loud my stomach was this morning, unless I want it to be the same during the rest of the afternoon, I had to eat something. 

Just standing in front of the doors to enter the cafeteria I could hear the loud chatter coming from inside. The sound of people talking, laughing all of that intimidated me too much to even step one foot inside. This is a time where I wish I had at least one friend so I could give them money to get me at least bread or something. 

I was about to step one foot closer to the two doors so I could open them until a group of students came down and pushed me to a side so they could walk into the cafeteria themselves. 

As I was pushed to a side, I watched the group of students walking into the cafeteria and I could already see a couple of them glancing at me. This wasn't just my class who would be staring at me and teasing me, this would be students from different grades sitting in one room and eating. 

I sighed and looked down, thinking things over once again before stepping towards the door for the second time. Okay, who am I to care if anyone stares at me? I can't let everyone's opinions on me get the best of me. Hah, like I care what they think anyway. 

I opened the doors to the cafeteria confidently and went to the line where I was waiting to buy my food. Some people were obviously looking at me but I ignored them, continuing to look forward. 

When I got my food I took my tray to a cafeteria table near the back of the room. I didn't want to try causing any attention onto myself, but I guess if you're the big kid you can't help but stand out. You can't help but have people stare at your every move and watch your body as you walk, or even when you sit. 

I think this is the most eyes I've ever felt on me. I only felt the minimum of my classmates stares because I'm usually only around them, but half of the school is in here. I can feel their piercing cold, jugful stares by every move I made. 

I don't know, it felt like I was in prison. I was the criminal and everyone else was the prison guards, watching my every move. 

Now that I think about it, I haven't seen Luhan or any of the marnvols since lunch had started. Do they not eat lunch in the cafeteria either? Are they always looking for me at lunch? Well...I guess if they were always looking for me, they would have already found me at my usual spot so probably not.

"Look who it is" I heard a voice call out from beside me and it was like it was on cue because when I turned my head, it was the marnvols. "What're you doing in the cafeteria? Aren't you suppose to be down the road at McDonalds?" Luhan asks while walking up to me with his group behind him and I rolled my eyes. I tried to continue eating my lunch while blocking out all their rude comments.