I couldn't get much sleep last night knowing that I had asked Minseok out yesterday. If anything, I got no sleep. My eyes stung in pain and my ears starting to ring when the alarm on my phone started to go off in my left ear.
I brought one hand up and turned my alarm off. I got off the few blankets I had slept on and walked to the bathroom where I started to brush my teeth. My stomach was grumbling in pain. I haven't ate anything since the day before yesterday.
I didn't end up eating lunch yesterday because I skipped school to see Minseok, and I don't usually eat dinner and on top of that I still have to save up for the lunch I'm going to buy today. It's like I could feel my stomach turning in pain. It was like when it grumbled, sharp little needles would stab inside my stomach.
I finished brushing my teeth but my grumbling stomach was still giving me horrible pains. I tried ignoring the pain as much as I could and fixed my hair a bit before going into my bedroom and wearing the same uniform I wore yesterday.
I left the house and went into my driveway, getting into my car. It looks like I'm low on gas again, I need to refill the tank. Damn it, if I refill the tank then I won't have enough for lunch. I looked at the blinking gas symbol and chewed on my bottom lip.
"Damn it" I mumble to myself, starting up my car and driving to the closest gas station.
When my tank was filled up and I used the last of my money, I drove to school and parked in the parking spot I usually always park in.
I got out and entered the school. My head instantly started to hurt me again when I heard people shouting down the hall and chasing after their friends. This is just great, now my stomach feels like sharp needles are pinning inside of me and on top of that my head is thumping in pain. This is just great.
I walked into the classroom and went straight to my desk, laying my head down and closing my eyes which were still stinging in pain from getting no sleep. My back is also hurting from lying on the floor. I'm a mess, aren't I?
"LUHAN!" Baekhyun practically shouts in my ear which made my head feel like it was about to fall off. He then slapped me on the back which jerked me up so I was now sitting up with a look of pain on my face. It hurt so bad I wanted to cry but I for sure in hell won't cry in class.
"What, did my slap hurt? You think me working out has been paying off?" Baekhyun questions in a smile, lifting up his short sleeved uniform shirt for me to see his non existent arm muscles as he tried his best attempt on flexing.
"Oh yeah, sure" I say, rolling my eyes while answering him.
"Is something wrong dude?" Baekhyung questions, arching one eyebrow as he leaned back onto a desk he was standing in front of. He crossed his arms and observed me like he was trying to figure me out.
"Everything's fine...why do you ask?"
"You look really pale and sweaty...are you sure you're not sick or something?" Baekhyun asks and I put on a smile for him so he didn't have to worry.
"I'm fine, maybe it's because I ran around the block this morning...and you know I've been using that skin whitening soap I've been telling you about." I say, making obvious excuses.
"Oh yeah, you have to give me the brand name because I really want my skin whiter~" Baekhyun says in a pleading tone, touching the side of his face while asking me.
"I'll tell you when I remember to write down the products name somewhere, I keep forgetting what it's called." I say and Baekhyun nodded to me, meaning okay.
I then notice Minseok walking into the classroom with his head down. Why isn't he wearing uniform pants? Is he even allowed to wear his sweatpants in class? "Look who showed up" I hear Chen say from behind me. I wanted to tell Chen to shut up, but I couldn't get the words to come out of my mouth.
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What society wants (Xiuhan fanfic)
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