What society wants (Xiuhan fanfic)

Address (Minseoks POV)

I ended up skipping phys ed. I didn't think I would want to stay in class even after the period was over so I grabbed my backpack and headed to one of the classrooms that wasn't in use, and staid in there for the rest of the day.

Just being in the classroom, alone, it was forcing me to over think about things, to wonder why everything was turning out this way. This is just like how I was before.

I rummaged through my bag, desperate for something. I managed to find a chocolate bar inside the big pocket of my backpack and just ate that. The lonely feeling in my stomach wasn't gone yet though. I lightly placed one hand over my stomach, trying to force myself not to burst out into tears.

I hate this feeling, I don't like it. I finished the rest of my lunch that I didn't eat but was still hungry. I cursed to myself while looking down, I'm pathetic.

Someone opened the door to the classroom and I quickly jolted my head to turn around, to see who had opened the door. I was slightly relieved when I saw it was Kris and took a deep breath out.

"What're you doing in here Minseok, eating?" He questions, walking up to me. He was out of his gym uniform so I'm guessing they're not in phys ed anymore.

I turned my head to look away from Kris and put my lunch inside my backpack. I didn't want him looking at me while eating. 

He sat down on the desk which was in front of me and looked down at me with the same smile on his face that he always had. "So what're you doing in here?" He questions once again. 

I glanced up at him before staring at the desk and answering "I didn't want to go to class so I'm hanging out in here until school is over...what're you doing in here?" 

"I'm here because the teacher told me to get some spare speakers that are apparently in this room somewhere. Do you know where they are?" Kris questions, sounding like he was hoping that I knew where they were. 

I took a quick scan of the room before shrugging my shoulders. "Sorry, I don't know." I answer in a quiet tone.

I guess he could tell something was wrong, or off about me because he asks in a concerned tone "is everything okay Minseok?" 

"Yeah, everything is fine" I answer in maybe too quick of a response. I looked up at him and he was staring at me suspiciously, like he didn't believe me. I wouldn't blame him for not believing me, I'm a horrible liar. 

He looked at me like he was expecting me to tell him the truth and I sighed lightly, realising I would have to tell him now. "It's Luhan" I admit. "I'm worried about him" I continue to say. 

"Because he's acting weird? I know, it's really obvious he's so out of it today. I think the teacher picked up on it too, because after we came back into the class from phys ed, he seemed really drained and out of it which for some reason is abnormal for him?" Kris says in a questioning tone, like he was asking for my clarification. 

"Yeah, he's usually really excited after phys ed." I explain before biting down on my bottom lip, just thinking about all of this makes me worry more about Luhan, but then I realised he's slowly pushing me away. I could feel the emptiness in my stomach again. I put one hand over my stomach and looked down, trying to forget the feeling of loneliness. 

Kris looked at me with one eyebrow raised and questions "are you hungry Minseok?" 

"NO!" I say loudly, but cleared my throat before saying in a calmer tone "I'm not hungry..."

Kris looked around the classroom before asking "want me to stay in here with you?" 

"Don't you have to get back to class?" 

"I'll make up an excuse saying I'm not feeling well or something, wait right here!" He says as he jumped off of the desk he was sitting on and running out of the classroom, having the door shut automatically behind him. He said to wait here like he thinks I'm going to go anywhere else? 

I pulled out my phone in the meantime and started playing some games on my phone before hearing the door to the classroom open again. I turned my head to see Kris now had a his backpack over one shoulder and  a smile on his face. 

He walked towards me but threw his backpack near the ground as he jumped to sit on the desk in front of me again. "So tell me what's bothering you, tell me what's on your mind." Kris says, now crossing his legs while he was sitting down on the desk. 

"Why would I tell you anything about my problems? I don't even know you...and you probably don't even care..." 

"Did I not tell you I like you yesterday or do you not remember that?" 

"I told you I have a boyfriend though..." 

"I know, but that doesn't mean I still don't want to get to know you. Come on, I can tell something is wrong, you can tell me what's wrong. Pretend I'm your diary or something." He says in a reassuring tone. 

"I don't use a diary-" 

"I'm just saying, pretend I'm something like a diary that you can tell anything to." Kris interrupts in a smile, still looking at me like he was expecting me to tell him at least something.

He knew I was upset about Luhan, so I decided to tell him about the thing my parents were fighting with me about. "Well one thing that's been stressing me out is that my parents want me to go to the doctors on Saturday again." 

"Why, are you sick?" 

"No, it's because I'm...you know..." I say, now staring down at the desk. Thinking he would know what I was implying. 

"Because you're chubby? You're not even that fat Minseok. Why do you have to go to the doctors?" Kris questions, he sounded really confused. 

My head jolted up to stare at him like he was crazy. Does he not see me compared to everyone else? He could see the expression on my face and continues to say "that's just in my opinion though." 

I let out a light sigh after he said that last thing. "I don't know Kris...but my parents want me to lose weight and to control it. They think bringing me to a doctor to do weekly checkups will help, but it just makes me even more depressed. I hate going to the doctors so I stopped going to him, cancelling it off without my parents knowing. They didn't know about it because they were gone for a month because of their job, but when they came back they found out and were enraged." I explain, updating Kris on what had happened.

"I see, well you don't have to lose any weight if you're with me. How about this, you come live with me and you don't have to deal with anyone else giving their negative opinions on you? You know, it's not good living in an environment where all you're doing is being degraded." 

"Y-You want me to move in with you?!" I ask, looking at him in surprise and shock.

"Yeah, I live by myself anyway and it does get lonely. It'd be nice having a roommate." He explains before leaning down and pulling his backpack off of the ground and hoisting it into his lap. He opened it and pulled out a piece of paper and a pen. He wrote down something on it before folding it in half and handing it to me. "Here, take this. It's my house address. If you really want to come and live with me, come tonight. If you don't it's okay, I respect your decision as well. And don't worry, I know you have a boyfriend so nothing will happen." Kris ensures, uncrossing his legs and getting off of the desk to stand up. 

I looked at the paper that was now placed in front of me and then stared back up at Kris, questioning "where're you going?" 

"Well if you do decide to come tonight I have to clean, don't I?" Kris asks in a smile before walking out of the room, leaving me alone to think about everything that had just happened. 

Kris is right in a way. I do agree with him that it was way better when my parents weren't here. I have no way on leaving them since I can't crash at a relatives house, and if I keep staying with my parents all they're going to do is get me more depressed. On the other hand if I do go with Kris and everyone around me that is negative in my life is away from me, then what would Luhan think? I can't stay with Luhan because he's worrying too much as it is about his own problems, but what would he think if I staid with Kris?"