What society wants (Xiuhan fanfic)

Christmas eve (Minseoks POV)

It's now Christmas break and the whole magical day is tomorrow. Luhan and I have been doing the whole 'diet' thing for a couple weeks now and I don't see any change, so I don't think it's working but he still insists on trying. I think that's the problem with me, if I don't see a fast result I instantly always think it doesn't work. 

I woke up at the time Luhan usually always comes to my house with my alarm pounding in my ear. I turned my alarm off in annoyance and groaned while sitting up. I rubbed my head and walked to the front door to open it, but when I opened the door, Luhan wasn't there. 

That's weird, whenever I open the door when I wake up...he's always here waiting for me to open it. I closed the door and locked it before turning around and going to my phone and calling him. 

The phone rang a couple of times before it went straight to voice mail. I brought my phone away from my ear, looking at it in confusion. Is he okay, is he maybe hurt? 

Okay I need to calm down, Luhan is probably fine, I'm overthinking things...I tend to overthink a lot of things anyway. 

I sat down on my couch and looked down into my lap. I don't think it'd be a big deal if I didn't do the exercises today. Would it matter if I ate out as well? I kept glancing at my phone but no text from Luhan were coming. 

I need to distract my mind or else I'm going to be thinking about Luhan all morning and the worst case scenarios will be popping in my head. I grabbed the remote for the TV and turned it on, flipping through channels to find something entertaining to watch. 

After watching a couple of shows, I turned on my phone which was laying beside me to check what time it was. I know I got no texts or calls from Luhan because my phone didn't vibrate either. When I turned it on, it showed it was almost the afternoon.

Okay something must be wrong, Luhan wouldn't just not come to my house and not tell me about it either. I'm getting a bit worried. I could feel my heart beat starting to race as I started overthinking again. I opened my phone and called Luhan, having the phone ring in my ear got me annoyed. Luhan didn't pick up the call. 

That's even more suspicious because Luhan always answers all my calls. I decided to try calling him again, but this time it went straight to voice mail...did he turn his phone off when he realised I was calling him?

I looked down into my lap and clenched my fists. Why is he ignoring me, did I do something wrong? I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes. I slapped myself across the face to get myself to think properly. "Come on Minseok, don't overthink" I say to myself, trying to get it through my head that I'm worrying over nothing. 

I looked around my house and decided to continue watching TV since I had nothing else to do. Since Luhan is always over, I never realised how lonely I always was. It's so lonely without him around...I miss him. I felt the loneliness I always felt inside my stomach. I wanted to grab the phone and order a pizza, but I held myself back. Luhan wouldn't want me to do that, I can't order a pizza. 

I staid another hour in the same spot just thinking about where Luhan could be when I heard a knock on my front door. When I heard the knock I practically jolted up out of my seat and walked to the door faster then I think I've ever walked in my whole life. 

When I opened the door it was Luhan, but he had a sad expression on his face. "You okay Luhan?" I question, looking at his sad expression with concern.

Luhan decided not to say anything but walked into my house. I closed the door behind him after he walked inside and when I turned around I already saw him walking into my living room and sitting down on the couch. I followed behind him and sat down beside him. "Luhan, are you okay? Why didn't you come this morning, why didn't you answer my calls?" I ask, giving him question after question. 

Luhan continued to look down with the same frown on his face, his facial expression looked like he had no intention on answering any of my questions but he finally spoke. "I'm...sorry I didn't answer your calls, I lost track of time." 

"Are you okay, what were you doing?" 

Luhan didn't answer me for a long time and continued to stare into his lap. I thought he was going to close his eyes and sleep any second because he was so frozen in place, it looked like he was a statue. He then slowly says "it's the anniversary of my mothers death today." 

When Luhan said that, I was a bit shocked, I had no clue Luhan's mother was dead. I knew she wasn't living with him, but he never implied that she was dead. I always thought she was back in China because maybe she got a divorce with Luhan's dad. 

"Your mom died?" I ask and Luhan nodded meaning yes. 

"She died a day before Chirstmas, what a great Christmas gift" Luhan says in a sarcastic tone, he sounded hurt and sad. 

I slowly brought my arms around him and started hugging him tightly.  I've never lost someone in my family so I wouldn't know what it feels like, but I could tell Luhan was very upset, I could feel his upset aura coming off of him. I want to hold him like this forever so he doesn't have to share his sadness alone. 

Luhan lightly hugged me back. I could feel my shoulder getting wet, but I realised it was just from Luhan's tears, so I didn't point it out. We staid in that position for a while before Luhan brought his head back and wiped a couple tears away from his eyes. "I'm sorry, I originally wasn't going to come today, but I realised you probably would have thought something was wrong." 

"I was overthinking just a bit..." I admit, looking down into my own lap now. "If you don't mind me asking, how long was it since she died?" 

"She died two years ago because of cancer." Luhan explains, letting out a deep breath after saying it. "I wish she wasn't gone..." 

"I'm sorry for you loss Luhan..." I say, bringing one hand up and rubbing his back in circular motions to try and comfort him. 

I could see Luhan was trying to contain his emotions, I hope he's not holding himself back because I'm here. He cleared his throat before trying to change the subject. "Tomorrow's Christmas...what're we going to do?" 

"I thought you were probably just going to come to my house again?" I ask and he shrugged. 

"I guess, I wanted to go out somewhere special with you though..." 

"Only couples go out on Christmas and do special things together-" 

"But we are a couple." 

"I know that, but people will stare at us weirdly and I don't like people...looking at me." I explain, having my words feel like they could clog my throat at any moment.

"I see, it's okay we don't have to go out if you're uncomfortable with it. You'll see what I have planned tomorrow." Luhan explains in a smirk. 

"You have something planned?!" I ask, pretty shocked. 

"Yeah, but it's a surprised" Luhan says in a smile, putting one finger over his lips.

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Hey guys thank you for being so patient with this fan fiction, I have more drama that's going to happen with Minseok. I don't think this fan fiction will end that fast. There's a bit more to happen before it ends.