valdez/lazaro

regrets

the word regret has never been in dennise's vocabulary.

Sure, she's had her fair share of moments she wish she could take back, but she treated it as more of a learning experience, as a medium for her to be a better version of her old self. She tried new things with a smile on her face and with determination, never turning back at a challenge.

there is, of course, one moment she wishes she could go back to, if only for a little while. Not to change or alter the moment, because that's not den's style; but to feel a couple of things twice.

she wishes she was back on that beach with ly. The two had snuck off while their teammates were resting in the beach house after a long day of beach volleyball, and were on the cool sand, looking at the incoming waves as they crashed near the shoreline.

alyssa had turned to her, a knowing look on her face, the twinkle in her eyes matched that of the stars that night. den had smiled in return.

"den? do you ever feel like we could have been more than this?" Alyssa had said quietly, staring at the libero for a few  seconds before turning back to the ocean.

"hindi ko alam. maybe in another time or place, we could have been." den remembers burying her fingers in the sand, then raising at as she watched the grains slipping slowly out of her grasp. No matter how hard she tried to hold on, they would always find a way escape.

that was one reason why she knew things with alyssa couldn't move forward. she was scared that no matter how hard she would try to hold on to alyssa, she would slip away from her as easily as the sand did.

Alyssa had smiled sadly before nodding her head once.

none of them said a word after that night; and every other night ever since.

Looking back at that memory now almost seemed silly when LA and his black labrador midnight where playing catch by the water. den couldn't help but chuckle at the two as they ran around the seashore. Den takes a handful of sand in her hand like she did all those years ago and watches as it escapes from her grasp, kind of like alyssa.

yeah, maybe she did have one regret after all.

sorry for being so mia guys!! haha hope you enjoy this.