rehab (lashton//malum)

Prologue

sliding down the wall i cried out in pain

you deserve this

please stop i begged myself

no ashton. this is your fault. you deserve to feel pain.

i yelled out as i dug the razor blade lower into my arm

"ASHTON!" my head whipped towards the door seeing my sister standing in the doorway

"please don't tell mo-"

"MOM ASHTONS CUTTING AGAIN!" lauren yelled and i sighed

here we go again

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"LUKE GET YOUR FATASS DOWNSTAIRS"

i sighed turning off my music and quickly running downstairs trying not to anger chris.

"were sending you away" he said looking at my mom before looking back at me

"what do you mean sending me away?"

"honey you need help" my mom liz said quietly not wanting to anger chris

"luke you're going to rehab"

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i leaned over the toilet before sticking my fingers down my throat one last time. tasting the putrid taste that i was so used to

"why am i so fat" i mumbled flushing the toilet and looking in the mirror

you're too pale michael

look at that stomach

have you seen your face?

"i need help" i mumbled opening the bathroom door

"you sure as hell do"

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i can't do this

i cannot tell my parents

i want help

i don't wanna be sent away

i wanna be okay again

fuck it

"mom, dad, i need to go to rehab"

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hello. i am the author and i don't wanna say my name for privacy reasons. erm yeah. here's the prologue. i update basically when i feel like it.