rehab (lashton//malum)

Chapter 2

sighing i walked into the cafeteria with the nurses

"we need you to eat. then you will be supervised outside of your room so we can make sure you don't purge. okay michael?"

i nodded not wanting to have to do this.

i sat down at a lunch table which reminded me of my shitty high school. bullies and bystanders just the usual high school setting.

a plate of food was placed in front of me

grilled cheese- 71 calories
fruit snacks-89 calories
coke-150 calories

too much

i couldn't possibly get away with not eating it but maybe i could get away with not eating it all

a grilled cheese has the least amount of calories. say we eat half of that, a few fruit snacks and maybe a sip of coke they should let me go

i took a breath before starting to eat

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flashbacks

i couldn't sleep without having nightmares about my father
step father

so i haven't slept yet.

i don't wanna wake the other boys up with my screaming because i'm a baby who can't handle a few nightmares.

i heard ashton come in a few minutes ago and i can hear him crying now. he's sitting on his bunk and i don't know if he knows i'm here. i wanna help him

slowly i started climbing down the ladder and sat down next to him

"ash" i said and he looked up at me. his beautiful brown eyes were bloodshot and puffy from crying

"oh ash" i said pulling him into a hug. he tensed a bit before softening and hugging me back

"i miss my sister and my brother and my mum" he cried digging his face further into my shoulder "i miss them luke"

"i know you do ash. i would too. but hey, we're all here to get better and then you get to go home. right? then you'll see them and it'll be happy right?"

"yeah i guess. i just wish i didn't have to get better. i don't need help i'm fine. i just wanna take my pain away"

"i know but you're doing it in a destructive way ash. that's why you're here. take your pain away by drawing or singing. what do you like to do?"

"i play drums"

"see? try that instead of hurting yourself. maybe there's a music room or something here. we could go wander the halls and find out?"

ashton nodded and i smiled leading him out of the room. we walked the hallways and rode the elevators until we got to the 5th floor, finding rooms along the lines of music, toys, computers, and a group one.

"look i see instruments" ashton said with his face pressed to the glass of the door like a child seeing a gift they want for the first time

"we should go in" i said fiddling with the doorknob

"what if we get in trouble?"

"live on the edge a bit? what are they gonna do?"

he hesitated but then nodded

after a few more minutes of fooling around with the door knob it opened revealing a room full of instruments and microphones

"this is so cool" ashton said with pure amusement in his voice and i smiled loving seeing him so happy

"we'll go ahead. play something" i said and he frowned

"but i'm not very good.  can you play anything?"

i nodded "guitar"

his eyes lit up "can you play with me? do you know any blink?"

i smiled and nodded "do you know i miss you?" i asked. it's one of my favorites

he smiled and nodded before sitting down at a drum set and starting the song. i played along and sang a bit.

"that was really fucking good ash!" i exclaimed after the song was over

"well thanks" he smiled and looked at me "you're an amazing singer luke"

i smiled "thanks. we should go back to our room"

he nodded and we left the room how it was found and walked out

walking out of the elevator we could see calum quietly crying in the hallway. it looked like he'd just had a panic attack

"cal. buddy?" ashton said squatting down next to him

calum looked up at us with tear stained cheeks and bloodshot eyes

"are you okay cal?" i asked giving him a small smile

he shook his head before starting to cry again. ashton looked at me with pleading eyes and i smiled a bit pulling both of them into a hug

"i don't wanna feel this way anymore" calum mumbled into my shoulder and i nodded
"i know buddy"

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