rehab (lashton//malum)

Chapter 3

i can't believe i just cried to them

i'm not supposed to open up

fuck

i sighed sitting down on my bed hoping to get some sleep but not really expecting any to come. i closed my eyes and attempted sleep until i heard the door slam shut. i quickly opened my eyes and looked over to see michael with tears spilling down his cheeks as he slid down the frame of the door

"michael?" i whispered loud enough for him to hear me

he jumped a bit before looking at me

"come here" i mumbled and he listened walking over to my bed still crying before getting in

"what's up bud?" i said looking him in the eyes

"i-i purged after i ate and i f-feel really bad about it. it's stupid"

"no no it's not stupid michael. it's okay it's hard not to"

he nodded but continued crying. i wiped a falling tear from his cheeks

"hey. look at me" i said and waited until we made eye contact "michael you're beautiful and i know me saying that isn't gonna change that you think your not but you are, you don't need to change for anyone. i don't care who called you fat to make you believe it but you're not"

"thanks calum. you didn't have to say that" he said sniffling

i smiled "i wanted to. i didn't say anything that was a lie. i promise"

he nodded but i knew he didn't believe me

"i haven't sang in awhile but it helps me fall asleep when i'm sad. maybe it'll help you?" i half asked half said

"go for it calum" he said with a slight smile on his face

"and as the sun went down
we ended up on the ground
i heard the train shake the windows
you screamed over the sound
and as we owned this night i put your body to the test with mine this love was out of control
3,2,1 where did it go" i sang watching him slowly drift asleep

"you're a good singer" i heard luke mumble

"why are you awake" i whispered loud enough he could hear me but quiet enough that michael wouldn't wake up

"insomnia" 

"i'm gonna try and sleep. you should too luke"

"alright. goodnight calum"

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"good morning boys!" a cheery nurse said entering our room and waking us all up "time for meds!"

i groaned unraveling myself from calums body and walking over to the nurse. she handed me 2 dixie cups, one with pills and one with water. i quickly drank the water and swallowed the pills hating the taste it left in my mouth but continuing anyways.

the other 3 boys slowly made their way over here too, ashton being last.

"you all have group therapy today. good luck!" the nurse said walking out of the room