Freshlee Imagines

Hayes (joslin)

Joslin pov
I sat there in me and Hayes room wanting to just leave this world. One year ago I took almost a whole bottle of sleeping pills. I have depression and I felt like no one wanted to deal with my problems anymore so I thought why not. Hayes who was just my best friend at the time found me 20 minutes after I took the pills. I was taken to the hospital and had to go through all this counseling for my depression and my attempt suicide. I asked my mom and the doctor to never tell Hayes that I have depression. He has never asked me is I did and I think he might think I have it but I don't want him to treat me like I'm fragile. When I woke up in the hospital that day Hayes asked why I did it and I told him people online were telling I was ugly and didn't deserve him.
I sat there on our bed wanting to cry. I was just told that my grandma died. She had cancer and was getting better they said. They were wrong. She died last night I guess.
"Babe!" I heard Hayes yell walking into the house. I didn't say anything. "Hey babe?" He asked walking up the stairs. He opened our bedroom door. "Hey I was looking for you. You ok?" He asked. I just looked down. He came and sat by me. "Hey what's wrong?" He asked. "Promise to not think of me as a baby?" I said. "I promise. I would never. What's going on?" He asked. "My grandma died last night. They said she was getter but she wasn't." I said getting louder now snore mad with every word. I broke. I started sobbing. Hayes pulled me into him. "Shhh. Shhh. She's in a better place now." He said quietly. "Why would you think I would think of you as a baby?" He asked. "Hayes.." I said sitting up and sniffing. "I have depression...." I started. "That's why I tried to kill my self a year ago." I said looking down. "Please don't leave me." I begged. "Shhhh. I'm not gonna leave you. Ever. Thank you for telling. I love you the same way I always have. Your not a baby I'm not mad." He said pulling me into him again. "Thanks you." I said. "Your welcome. I love you." He said. "I love you too." I said taking a deep breath to calm down.