okay so sence my last post I have kinda been going through this kinda depressiony state. I don't want to call it depression because I don't think it's the right term. anywhosies, I've just been super down, my friend is in the hospital and the doctors don't know what's wrong with him, my world seems like it's all falling apart, my aunt is a rude mhm. I don't do anything right. Idk it's all so hard. oh Grace, your over reacting, its probably all fine.
is it though? the TATINOF movies came out today and I was super happy, a lot went wrong today, I had srs cramps, my back hurt, I lost my binder, I had to stand infront of the entire lunch room, I somehow bruised my hand, and my favorite character from a book I'm reading died. and yet I was still so happy.
I came home and watched the first TATINOF movie then did chores till mom got home. apparently I was distracting my brother for three hours with my" constant screeming" I didn't scream for three hours! I got excited over the only thing I have been able to have a complete interest in and I was actually genuinely happy for the first time in 6 days.
apparently I'm not allowed to show any interest or happiness in anything amnymore. I'm grounded off my phone til mom gets home tomorrow. which will be at like 6:30. I seriously hate living here. I can be in the nest mood ever, ill sing, dance, and be happy then she comes home. she will shut off my music, call me annoying, and then I get moody and then get in trouble for having and attitude she caused.
someone please just help me find some way to be happy again. I can't do it
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CasualeI have some weird things that go through my head. my ships, puns on my sexuality, when I get upset, and so on and so forth. so these are pointless rants and randomness. I also write short little stories that could go into books so don't be surprised...
