The Niche

He Is Not Looking At Me!

Tomorrow I will be going to my family's house and will have some mega fun but before that school.

I just have to suck it up for today.

Today was my 'I don't give a single shit' day.

I entered the school and sighed, waking up was a struggle already and then getting ready before time was close to impossible, but I managed by skipping my breakfast. Now with gurgling stomach and low self esteem I will have to ignore Dhruv.

Joy!

As I was late I didn't meet the girls before the lessons and went straight to the Economic class. I reached the class and took my seat without bothering anyone else hoping that they will return the favor.

I gave a small smile to Vedika who was seated next to me and put my head in my hand to get a little rest.

"Kimaya did you heard?" Vedika said.

"No! And I don't want to" I said rather rudely which made her mouth shut.

No bullshit today.

The teacher came and started talking about National Income of the country, I wanted to study since it was a very important chapter but I refused to. I cannot, I didn't feel like talking today let alone learning something.

The particular Thursday vibe surrounded me.

I was super lazy today but that didn't make me immune to the Dhruv addiction, so I looked around to see him because I am little more pathetic than I would lead on.

He wasn't in the class.

Stupid boy must be bunking or maybe he is sick. That would be very unfortunate I really hope he is alright.

I kept my thoughts to myself and looked around the class again this time I saw Tushar (Devika's boyfriend) looking at me. I looked away.

What is he looking at? You have a girlfriend I said in my head and expected it to telepathically reach him. To check the results I looked at him again. He was looking down this time.

Hmm...good

I tried to concentrate on the book but was very distracted. From the corner of my eye I again felt somebody was looking at me.

I turned my head to find out Tushar was again looking at me, again.

Ok Kimaya lets not over think this, let's just look down and daydream about sexy Dhruv.

Dhruv in shorts, Dhruv with abs, Dhruv with nothing on, I tried all my daydream tactics but nothing worked because I was getting insecure that someone is looking at me. I didn't have any food on my face I never had any breakfast, can he hear my stomach? Or is my zipper open? Am I exposing?

Why is he looking at me?

The narcissistic part of my brain said, maybe you are looking good, that bitch is dead now!

No liars allowed in my head.

What is wrong with him?

Maybe he got dozed off at some object and looks like he is looking at me or maybe he finds the color of the wall interesting and want to have a wall color business in future for which he is just preparing.

Yeah that is possible.

I turned to the teacher and ignored his piercing stares all along the class.

Sure there will be a gaping hole on the side of my head.

The class got over after a really long and tardy lecture I was the first one to escapes the sickening environment.