sun shines and rainbows
flowers and sunrise
birds and bright skies,
there are days like that.
yet gloomy weather,
3ams and afters
falling leaves and fall out feathers
there are also days like that.
when you feel like smiling
or laughing or enjoying your day,
you thought you were happy
until you again felt crappy.
after talking, advicing
writing, reading
you go to bed
and then there's this pit
or hole or void
attending your place again.
confused, exhausted,
drained, frustrated-
feeling something
yet nothing
at the same time.
shouting, screaming
the bile inside your throat building
crying,
no tears falling
laughing, choking
so dead
so dead
so dead
inside.
memories flashing
ghosts haunting
on hallways
inside your mind.
engraved somewhere,
echoes not so rare.
villains, shadows
demons, creeping in
wearing, wearing,
wearing
you thin.
