A Court of Fire and Lies

Missing

The meeting soon ended after we all began to discuss in quiet whispers it seemed as if secrets loomed everywhere as if there was no truth to anything who knows if any of this is real at least I wish it was all a dream. My mind wanders to Rhysand and how they took my declaration of war, maybe they thought I'd say no but enough is enough, the night court deserves freedom. The echo of Lilianthia's father words run through my mind and how he called it the court of Nightmares. 

Whore. 

Whore. It bangs along with the word traitor that once felt like a burden to bear. Even though I know it is a lie and they all know it, it still makes me sick to think that that's what everyone thought. That i was his whore, kept there under his control. But in the end it was worth it to put on the show to all the courts. They think I'm stronger then I really am. And they're right.

"You are strong. Stronger than you think" His voice hits me suddenly and a twinge of happiness rumbles through me. 

I just gotta make it through this and we can finally be free. At least there is some upside of me going to the winter court, I'll get to see him. Sadly it will be under different circumstances but we'll find a way. 

I miss the shadows of the Night Court that they all seemed to release each step they all took, the stars I memorized, from my bedroom,  training in the early morning with Cassian even though sometimes my bones felt like they would crack, talking with Amren and the life Velaris filled me with I can't seem to find it anywhere else. None of its home. All empty. To bright and false. They weren't perfect, they weren't my enemies. They are my family. 

"We should go." Lilianthia says to me and my head snaps up.

"Yeah." Only a few still sit.

"Where should we go."She says

"How about the library?" 

"I thought you couldn't read and that's why you couldn't complete the spell?" 

Wow, is that what they think. "Oh? Who told you that?"

"Sorry, I just didn't think it was a secret but the King of Hybern told everyone that that's why you failed and as your punishment for not succeeding was that your sisters were to be turned by the command of the High Lord of the Night Court who controlled your mind, and when you tried to break free Tamlin stopped him and released you from it by your mating bond snapping into place. After that he took you to the Spring Court and your sisters to the Summer Court while you healed and Tamlin took care of everything." A small smile appears like she knows the full scoop on the truth of what happened that day. 

They must think I'm some helpless child, they think I am an illiterate weak girl. As far as they know Tamlin saved the day while I stood on the side crying while Rhysand controlled me until big strong Tamlin got his mate saved my sisters and defeated the all  powerful and evil high Lord of the Night Court. I can't believe this shit. He must have made up this story to make all the courts angry at Rhys. That's why instead of saying night he said nightmare because as far as anyone can tell he ruined everyone's plan while Tamlin saved me and all the courts. God! just one more reason to hate him and Hybern and he didn't even bother telling me about any of this. The lies. He is as bad as the King who I hate even more than before if that is even possible. I walk with  a grim face as fury boils within me as I curse Tamlin under my breath. That coward couldn't even tell the truth for once. He can't do anything. I wonder if Rhys knows. He probably doesn't, I doubt he has had much communication with the Courts. The Summer Court already declared hatred for life with a blood ruby that was sort of my fault. From the meeting as far as I can tell the winter court dislikes them, the Spring Court is just waiting to tear them to shreds.  I doubt the Autumn Court is too keen on them and I don't know about the rest. So those odds are not good. So many against just one. But I know with the Court of Dreams anything is possible. And no one even knows that I am the High Lady of the Night Court as I sat in that meeting, thinking they could bear all to me.