Jayden. With Confidence.

Chapter 29

Jayden's point of view

Since I spent most of my lunchtime in the music room yesterday, I had managed to pretty much avoid Kayla. Unfortunately for me, the music room was closed this lunchroom and Kayla won't leave me alone. Mavis wouldn't dare come near her and Kayla wouldn't leave me alone so it started too look a little weird considering I'm usually at the bench with the boys and Mavis. There was also a rumour that Mavis and I had split after Josh's party which started almost out nowhere and spread like absolute wildfire.

"Kayla, for the last time, leave me alone!" I yell. I turn around and look at her and she puts on a clearly fake sad look. I could see right through it. "Seriously, I absolutely hate you for what you did on Saturday and how you've been making Mavis feel all year. You need to drop the good girl act because we can all see right through it. You are cold and manipulative and I'm not going to let you get in the way of my relationship."

"Fine, go run off to the good girl then." She scoffs. I tense up my shoulders as I breathe in before walking away. I walk over to the bench to find Mavis and Morgan getting cosy. I know it's only a joke so I try to make humour out of it, which seems to work at first.

"I'd like to have my beloved girlfriend back now." I chuckle and Morgan, who also laughed moved over so I could sit next to Mavis. However Mavis decides she doesn't find it all that funny.

"So you think now that you're done banging Kayla in the staff toilets you can have me back." She snarled with a nasty look on her face. No one says anything, not even me. I just stand up and walk away. Even though she claims that she forgives me for the whole Kayla thing, she's been really rude about it and I'm honestly pretty sick of it.

I walk around the school to try and find somewhere quiet and relatively alone. I can't believe she said that to me even though she knows how much I hate myself for what happened. I decide the best place to go would probably be the library because I don't go in there out of my own free will so it's unlikely if they go looking for me, they'll look in there. But who am I kidding, Mavis probably doesn't care, she probably thought what she says was funny.

When I get in there I notice all the tables are full except one. Lucky for me, Luke Rockets was sitting at that table so I can go and sit with him. Maybe this will give us a chance to get to know each other. At first he looks confused when I sit down next to him but as we start talking he seems to loosen up a little bit.

"Hi." I huff. I'm not mad at him of course; it's the Mavis thing,

"Hey. Are you alright? You seem upset." He says shutting his laptop to focus on the conversation.

"Yeah, Mavis and I are just having a rough time at the moment." I say, not sure whether to unload all my emotional baggage on this guy.

"Do you want to talk about it? We still have a little while before class and lessons this afternoon have been replaced with studies so we can catch up on any last minute work since school is nearly over for us. "He offers.

I nod before beginning the story. "So on Saturday we all went to Josh's house for his birthday. Joh invited a few other people, including his cousin who just happened to bring Kayla on as a plus one kinda thing and she kissed me. I wanted nothing to do with her and kicked her out right after it happened but at that stage Mavis had already seen it and left. We did however, supposedly patch things up on Sunday but she's been really rude about and I'm just sick of it. Like 5 minutes ago she practically accused me of shagging Kayla in the Teacher's bathroom. Like what the hell. Why is she doing this, she knows how torn up I got and she knows that I tried to get Kayla to leave me alone."

Luke nods and gives me sympathetic look. "That sucks dude. I think maybe she may have a little bit of paranoia that if Kayla gets too close to you, the same thing will happen again. She just doesn't want to deal with the feelings she experienced again, or see her boyfriend passed around like a toy."

What he says makes sense. "I know that doesn't necessarily excuse what she said, but maybe she is acting out irrationally to try and mask her insecurities and paranoia."

I nod, taking in what he said. I really think he may have a point.

"Thanks dude. I might go and try and sort things out with her now while I still have time." I say, smiling as I stand up.

"Sure thing." He says. Right as I go to turn away he stops me. "Hey Jayden, I know I said I would need the rest of the week to decide and we haven't even had that practise yet, but I checked your stuff out on youtube last night and I want you to let Josh and Inigo know that I would 100 percent love to join the band."

I smile even more. I was really hoping he would join the band. I walk back to the bench to find that Mavis had obviously been crying. I don't say anything; I just sit down next to her and wrap my arms around her. "I'm sorry." I whisper. She shakes her head.

"No I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I said." She says, wiping her eyes. I hold her closer as she composes herself and when she gets back to normal I still keep one arm around her.

Suddenly I remember what Luke and I had just been talking about. "Oh hey boys, I ran into Luke in the library and we talked about stuff and just before I left to come back here, he said he doesn't need to have band practise to know he really wants to be in the band. He's in!"

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Hey guys, Why did no body tell me this was blank?

I'm so embarrassed. Had I not chosen to go through the entire story I would never had realised on my own. Oh well, it's up now I guess.

Sorry about that.

Much Love, Billie. xx