*Shadow*
~Flashback~
I make my way down the street, heading for Mr. Sub hoping that I can get something to eat. I've been hungry for so long it seems. I swear it's been like three days since I last ate. Dad hasn't been home since Monday and now it's Thursday. Hopefully Johnny boy is working tonight so I can get a discount. Dad will be pissed when he finds out that I took some money.
I sigh as I push open the door and spot Johnny behind the counter. Looks like today is my lucky day, considering how much he 'loves' me. No one would love me if they actually knew me. But at least I can get a cheap but good meal from him. Yeah I know, I sound like a cliche mean girl, but what can I say? A girl's gotta eat somehow when she has a damaged father, a drugged step mother, and an abusive, creepy stalker of a step brother.
I walk up to Johnny with the grace I've earned from a few years of dancing. I got a great body, and I remind everyone of it every day by showing it off. But what no one knows is, once I get home I quickly change into baggy clothing to hide from the piercing, lustful gaze of James, my step brother. He has nothing better to do than to stare at me. It's so gross and sick. I mean, who the hell does that?
"Hey Johnny boy." I say, my voice bubbly and sweet. I twirl my smoky hair around my left index finger. He turns to me with a large grin on his face, and I have to admit that it is incredibly adorable. I hold back the urge to sigh in frustration as I watch his eyes travel down my body. I get it, I'm utterly gorgeous with my splendid cleavage, wonderfully curvy torso, and slender waist, but he didn't have to make it so obvious that he was checking me out.
"What's up Shadow?" he says, his voice as lovely as always. "Got a date tonight or something?" he asks, and I grin sweetly at him. "I don't know. Are you free?" I ask flirtatiously and he grins at me. "I will be in five minutes if you wanna hang around." I giggle like a school girl and throw myself at him, hugging him tightly. "OHMYGOD, are you serious? You really wanna eat with me?" I fake being surprised, and I could see the glares I was getting from a group of girls nearby who clearly had a thing for Johnny.
"Yeah. I'll go place the order now and it should be ready by the time I get my break. Go find a table babe?" he said as he started toward the cash. I nodded and skipped off to an empty table, but on my way by the group of girls, I was called to a stop. "Yo, Smoky, come here." I turn and fake innocence as I make my way over to a clearly dyed, snarky looking redhead. "Yes?" I ask sweetly, and she glares at me. "How the hell did you get Johnny to ask you out? He never says yes to anyone, and believe me, we've all tried."
I drop the innocent act and go full bitch on her. "Listen here sweetie, I clearly have more than you do, like a long list of things. but I don't want to hurt your feelings, so I'll just give you the short version. I got Johnny." She bares her teeth at me like a freaking dog! I hear a few of her ugly friends growl at me and I let out a laugh. I lean against the table, showing off my perfect body which tops the list of shit she doesn't have. "How about you give me the list bitch?" she says and I shrug. "If you say so." I stand straight and smile down at her sweetly.
"I have money, amazing clothing, an even more amazing body, and Johnny to top it all off. Let's see what you have?" I look her up and down and laugh once again. "You clearly don't have money, unless wearing rags is the new fashion, which I know it's not. You don't have a good body at all. Look at your face! And oh yeah, you don't have Johnny." I see her grit her teeth and I smile sweetly down at her and her friends. "Have a great evening girls!" I call as I walk over to the still empty table that I wanted, and Johnny soon joins me, sliding in beside me and kissing my cheek.
Not many people know that Johnny boy's daddy is the richest man in town, other than my father. His dad usually doesn't let him out of the house unless he's dressed to impress, but since he's working here to earn some extra cash for whatever he actually wants to get, he doesn't tell anyone his last name. "So babe, how have you been. I haven't seen you at school lately." He says as I take a large bite out of my meatball sub. I glance at him as I swallow and place it down. "Yeah I know. I haven't felt very good lately." I tell him and he nods his head, telling me he understands, but I know he doesn't.
Once we've both finished eating, he heads off back to work. "You can hang around if you want too babe. I get off work in an hour and I can give you a ride home. It's really dark out." I glance down at my watch and realize that it's nine o'clock and I need to hurry home. "Can't Johnny boy. I'll just call...James to come and get me." The very thought of being in a car alone with him made me sick, but it would take me to long to walk home. Plus, I hated the night. He nods and kisses my forehead and heads back to working and I wave goodbye. I call James.
"Hello?"
"Hey James, can you come pick me up? I'm at Mr. Sub."
"Yeah sure. It's not like I have a real life."
He snaps at me and hangs up. I know that somehow I'll pay for this fact later. I wait outside for him to come and when he pulls up, I almost sigh in relief for the fact that I don't have to stay out in the cold anymore. I slip into the passenger seat of his 2012 jeep wrangler and buckle my seat belt. He doesn't waste any time waiting for safety. He just bolts down the nearly empty streets and pulls up into our driveway. I hop out of the car and bolt for the door.
Once inside my room, I feel safe for a matter of maybe five seconds. He bursts through the door and glowers at me. "What, do I not even get a thank you?" he snarls at me and I hiccup slightly in fear. His eyes are dark with anger and...lust. I crawl to the ends of my bed, as far away from him as possible. "Th-th-thank you." I stammer, stumbling over my own words. He steps into my room and slams the door behind him. "Ge-e-et o-o-ut J-a-a-m-m-e-s" I stammer again and hide my face.
When I look back up. He's standing at the end of my bed, his shirt off and his pants undone. Oh, heck no! I cry silently to myself. "I'm sick of this game Shadow. You and I both know how this ends, don't you?" he says and I cower against the pile of little stuffed animals that I have. He lunges onto my bed and pins me down, and I struggle against him, but he's heavier than I am strong. "I'm going to make this easy for you Shadow, as long as you don't struggle. Got it?" he growls into my ear, his breath like acid in the air.
He pulls my tight, low cut shirt off, ripping the silky material so that it falls in a pile of shredded fabric. Next goes my mini skirt and I begin to freak out. He's actually going to rape me, and my daddy isn't here to stop him. But would he, even if he was actually here? No, I realize, he wouldn't. I realize that he has gotten me completely naked and he is as well. He slams himself into me and I cry out in pain. Feeling lost, broken, and...dead. I actually felt died inside. He had killed me by destroying me this way.
He took my actually innocence and now I am broken and dead inside. He continued to slam into my body, causing me to cry out in more pain, never pleasure. But eventually, I stopped responding, feeling to numb to react. This boy has killed me, and yet my body still moves on as if I am still alive. He finally finished and leaves me, bloody and desperate in my soiled bed, my poor stuffed animals ripped and bloody as well.
I rise from my bed, and make my way into my bathroom were I keep my razors for shaving. I break two of them, their blades sharp and glistening with my lost innocence and desire. Desire for a life that I never thought would be possible since I was ten, when my mother left me. I take the sharpness to my skin and shred it till it's barely distinguishable as a wrist, arm, or a bloody chunk of meat. I make my way to my second story window, staggering from blood lost. On the bare wall between the window and my horrid bed, I drag a bloodied finger, writing as neatly as I possibly can
Goodbye daddy. Thanks for nothing you bloody monster.
And with that, I throw myself out of the window, through the glass and I fall to my death.
~End of flashback~
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so I actually have no clue if anyone is reading this but if so, i hope you are enjoying the story.
