Hidden Scars

Trying

Seungri look at Jiyong and he look at Seungri.

"What are you looking at?" Jiyong ask cold the Seungri just turn his head away.

"I'm sorry.I'm sorry about what happen." Seungri said trying to get Jiyong heart back.

"Even you wait for a years I would never forgive what you did.I don't know you can be that disgusting howering all over her to make me hate her.Are you that desperate to make me fall in love with you?" Jiyong ask mocking Seungri.

"Jiyong hyung....Please." Seungri plead tears envolving around his eyes.

"If you are in here,to make me get angry and I might also kill you,you better get out." He put down his phone then look at Seungri.

"Cause now I'm not killing you because my bestfriend care about you.So be careful idiot." Jiyong said then look back at his phone.

Seungri walk out from the room leaving Jiyong alone and he walk out from their apartment to take a walk.He wear a distinguishes and then he walk until he arrive at a park.He sit on a bench and look at the river infront.The environment seems so quiet.As quiet as Seungri heart.

Seungri look the the reflection of the moon on the water in the river and smile.Then his tears falling down one by one.

"Why am I crying?" Seungri try to wipe away the tears but it seems won't stop.
"Why?Even my eyes won't cooperate with me." He said then crying.

"Why is love so cruel like this?" Seungri questioning himself and crying alone in the dark night.As he was to immersed in crying,suddenly rain start to drop and then a heavy rain fall.

'God was so nice.Not just washing away my blood,he even wipe away my tears.' Seungri thought then look up at the sky letting the rain drop on his face.

Back at Youngbae,he was searching for Seungri around their apartment after he receive a message from Seungri.He know he need to give Seungri some personal time.But in this rain,its dangerous especially for a sick person like Seungri.As he reach at a park,he saw a black figure sitting on a bench like a statue.He walk toward him and yeah,he was right it was Seungri.

"Seungri!What are you doing under the rain!You will get sick you pabo yah!" Youngbae scold him but the youngest just smile at his blabbering.

"Hyung!Thank you for the love and care you always give for me." Seungri said smiling make Youngbae face change.

"You always be there,make sure me know the happiness of having a mom when my real mother got taken away.Taking care of me when I'm sick.Always spoil me when I'm not in mood.Thank you hyung." Seungri said actually crying but the rain and his smiling face hiding it.

"Ri?Why so suddenly?" Youngbae sit on the bench and make sure both of them was under the umbrella.

"I'm thinking of leaving Big Bang." Seungri said.

"Yah!Don't talk nonsense!" Youngbae shout scared.

"Its real hyung.Isn't it better.I want to die as an unknown person.So when I was out of Big Bang nobody would care about my death.But if i'm still in Big Bang,many people will be sad once I'm gone." Seungri said.

"Ri..In or out Big Bang everything is the same.Please don't talk like this anymore.I can't afford it..I can't afford it to lose my maknae.Please.." Youngbae plead Seungri and hug him.

"Hyung...i'm wet..Don't or your clothes will be wet too." Seungri said jokingly.

"Who care?I love my maknae." Youngbae said which make Seungri smile happy.

'At least Hyung love me.Right?'

Both of them then walk home together and Seungri straightly walk to the bathroom to have a hot bath before sleeping since he need to avoid fever.

After the bath,Seungri open the bandage he put on his hand and let the cuts free since its dark in the room,so Jiyong won't get to see it.But for a help,he wear long sleeves shirt to cover it.He then walk into the room looking at Jiyong that already sleeping on the other side of the bed.As he was about to sleep,suddenly Jiyong said.

"I don't want to sleep with a faggot who are gay so before I kick your ass out,sleep outside." Seungri try hard not to make any sound getting a pillow and thin blanket then he walk out lifelessly.

"Goodnight..Jiyong hyung." He said lastly before closing the door.Outside was really dark as everyone was asleep,Seungri check on Youngbae to sleep with him,but then he found Youngbae was Skype with Hyorin.He decline to sleep with him to give Youngbae some time with Hyorin since he lost so much when he need to take care of Seungri at the hospital.

Seungri walk slowly to Daesung room to hear he was talking to Top.Maybe they were like chatting or something.Again he decline it.Yeah he don't want Top and Daesung relationship get ruin as how Jiyong and Seungri is if Seungri say he want to sleep with Daesung as Top hate him as much as how Jiyong hate him.

At the end he walk to the living room and put the pillow on a sofa then lay his body on the small sofa which his knees touching his chest cause its too small.Well,nobody use living room so its happen that way.
He put the thin blanket and then another night end.Seungri life time decrease.

TO BE CONTINUED.