Hidden Scars

Memories

Seungri walk in slowly letting all their attention on him.

"Hello hyung.." Seungri said.

"Why are you here?" Jiyong ask.

"Eh?I'm..I'm here to visit.." Seungri said.

"The one who left us and live happily now came to pay a visit?Why cause we are being a hot topic now?" Top said make Seungri a bit hurt.

"I'm here to say a proper goodbye." Seungri bravely said.

"For us you are already a nobody get lost." Seungri step back shock when he heard Youngbae said that.

"You betrayed us for others.So why are you here?Go there to your hyung." Daesung said.

"Hyung..What do you mean?" Seungri feel so lonely when Youngbae the person he take as his second mother treat him like a nobody.

"Hyung!Listen to me first!You guys are getting the wrong idea.The reason why I go away is because...." Seungri stop as he remember about the rape then he look at Jiyong.

'Revealing he raping you will just make Big Bang split Seungri.Get on with it.Your need is to make sure all of them were happy.' Seungri though and he hardly lie to them.

"Cause i'm tired of everyone." He said looking down hiding his tears.

"Good then.Get lost.We hope this is the last time we found and meet you Lee Seung Hyun." Jiyong said coldly.

"Don't ever appear infront of us anymore after this." Top said.

"Before I go..Before I really left everyone for the last time,can I have a hug?Like a group hug?" Seungri ask smiling hoping they will.

"Sorry,we don't hug stranger.Get lost." Jiyong said which make Seungri feel really sad.So sad that maybe he was the most loser person on the world.

"I wish all of you keep healthy and happy.I'm sorry..And I forgive you." He said and all of them look at him when he said he forgive them.

"Lol..He was forgiving us for what?Hurting him?He is the one who hurt us first.Stupid." Top said.

After the door was closed Seungri run away to don't know where until finally he reach the roof top.He was crying and too tired until he fall in to the fall after hiding himself.He really need a time for himself.A time to gain all his courage and strength back.

"I'm...I'm so...Sorry hyung ah...Jiyong hyung I'm so sorry...Why am I so useless?Why?" Seungri cry hugging himself.

"Here is so cold...but nobody here to hug me anymore..I'm so useless...Omma..appa...We will meet soon...I miss you guys so much...Nobody need me here..." Seungri cry so much until he feel so tired and dizzy.

Seungri lay down his body on the cool concrit then he keep rewinding about the past.

The time when all this never happen.He was smiling alone and still crying remembering how Youngbae hug him and pat his head after his lost his mother and father in a fire.Through out the months everyone was being so good to him and always there if he was crying.

Then he remember the time where they were at Japan and he suddenly got lost.He can't never forget the worry on Jiyong face when he found Seungri crying on the side road.

Seungri eyes become cloudy when he look at the sky.

'It hurt so much until it reall feel pain at my heart.Its so hurt..when loving someone too much but it just become a dust.Dust that fly away along with the wind.'

Suddenly a person came up to the roof top and luckily it was Doc.Hyuna.She was so shock to found Seungri lying on the floor.

"Hey!Why you lying here?Its cold wake up.You will get sick." She said worry.

"I'm already sick.And sick to the point I'm dying." Seungri said smiling.

The doctor feel bad but then she slowly getting on the floor and help Seungri to stand up but then she realize Seungri was feeling dizzy and his body was limping.

"Are you ok?Your face are really pale.Let's go to your room ok?" She said then help Seungri to stand but shockingly Seungri body was light.As light as feather.She then just take decision to pick him up in bridal style as he is not even heavy.

"What is your weight?You feel so light?Are you eating properly dear?" She ask concern about this nice young boy.

"No appetites to eat." Seungri answer then just lay his head on the doctor shoulder until he feel he was put on a bed.He open his eyes and look around.Hospital room.

"You must have a good rest cause the operation is tommorow." She said slowly.

"Its ok.Even if i stop breathing during the operation,just continue it.Don't make an effort to save a lerson who dying.You can't change fate." Seungri said smiling at her and she just look down.

"Rest well Ri.Here is my number.Call me personally if you want or need anything ok?" She said concern about this lonely boy and Seungri just smile the look at her until she was out of sight. 

Seungri look at the window and saw a beautiful light of sun that ready to set down.The last sun he can see before he die.
Seungri slowly walk to the window and touch the light with his hand.He smile again.

'God..If this is the best for everybody,then just let me hurt as much as it need to make everyone happy.Even if hurting.' Seungri pray in his heart.

TO BE CONTINUED.

A/N AUTHOR GETTING EMOTIONAL...HUHU I'M CRYING THROUGH THIS CHAPTER.......COMMENT WHAT YOU THINK...