I hope you know I love you (Punk and pastel Phan)

Take Me Away

Phil:
I walk into the guest bedroom to see him sitting in the corner. He looks up at me right as I walk in.
"How is she?"
"Breathing."
I snort and so does he.
"I would hope so." I shuffle next to him, stop standing, and leave the door cracked. Dan suddenly stands up, and I think he is about to leave but he kisses me softly. I wrap my arms around his waist and close my eyes. His arms make their way around my neck.
"That was a nice surprise." I say smiling as we break apart.
There is a long pause as Dan stares into my eyes, but I can't tell what he is thinking at all.
"I know you paid for the ring."
Dang it.
"Thank you. You didn't have to, I'm sure it was expensive." He said quietly.
"It doesn't matter the cost, I wanted to get you something nice."
"You're too much Phil Lester." Dan gushed as I smirk down at him.
"Thanks Dan."
"Can we leave her? I don't wanna wake her."
"Sure thing."
Dan walks towards the bed and I watch as he leans down and kisses his mothers forehead. I place a supportive hand on his shoulder, and squeezes lightly. He swings around, and clings to my side as I slither my arm over him. He snuggles his head into me, as I turn the lamp off and we leave the room.
"Dan!" My mother catches us as we step foot into the stairs.
"Do you want anything to eat or drink?"
"I'm good but thank you Mrs.Lester."
"Well okay, but if you need anything just tell me, Mr.Lester or Phil. Goodnight you too, sleep well loves."
"Love you mom." I says as Dan whispers Thank you."
We walk up the stairs and Dan bumps my side with his hip. I smile to myself as we reach the top of the stairs and I open the door for Dan. As I close it Dan swings around and wraps his arms around my neck. I lay my hands on his hips and we start to sway together. Side to side we go; smiling broadly at each other. He lays his head on my shoulder and starts to kiss my neck lightly.
"You're so cute."
I smile at his words and can't help but pull him closer to me.
"So are you."
Dan yawns into my neck and I giggle as I hug him tightly.
"Let's go to bed, okay bear?"
"Okay." Dan says sleepily and I can hear the smile on his voice. He then suddenly takes my wrist and falls onto the bed; pulling me with him. Our bodies bounce up above the bed then we are laying side ways, and in starring at Dan as he uncontrollably giggles. I can't help but smile with him. He lazily wraps his arms around my neck, and pushes his body against mine. My blue eyes are connected to his brown ones, as our lips are inches apart.
"Phil Lester." He says in a low voice.
He is so hot
"Dan Howell." I say back in a low voice as my arms trace their way to his lower back.
"I love you so much."
"I love you too Dan." I break the space between him and kiss him passionately. He kisses me back hard and sloppily but it's okay because it's Dan Howell kissing me. It's Dan. I love him so much and I just can't help it. I start to let my hand up the side of his shirt and I can feel him smile against my lips. Then he pulls roughly on the end of my shirt and comes even closer to me.
"Phil Lester," he says in between kisses "do you want to run away with me?"
"What?" My lips stop moving against his, and my stomach drops. I don't think I heard him right. I couldn't have.
"Run away with me." Dan says it again, and he's still kissing me. He's actually leaning himself up on his elbow now so he's above me.
"Dan no I-I can't. You can't either!" It all comes out rushed, because I don't know what to say. Dan now has stopped kissing me. I don't know if it's because I've placed my hands lightly on his chest or because of what I said.
"Phil, nothing is here for me besides you." There are tears welling up in his eyes now, and it breaks my heart. I can only imagine how horrible Dan's child hood is and I wish I could wrap him in my arms for the rest of time. All Dan Howell deserves in life is happiness and to be well, but instead he has had to deal with the complete opposite.
"What about your mom Dan?" I'm holding his shoulders now; afraid that if I let go he will run away.
"She won't care if I leave! She'll be too drunk to even notice, and it's one more expense to cross off her list!" His voice is rising higher and higher as tears stream down his face into my arm.
"Please don't say that. Look, you're tired and a bit loopy because of it. You need some sleep Dan."
"No I don't! I just need to leave!" Tears keep racing down his face, as he yells. I try to wipe his tears away but there are too many of them.
"I have been here my whole life, swimming in my own pain and misery while everyone just watches from afar! I hate this place...but I love you." Dan keeps his eyes glued to my chest as I take a hand away from his shoulder intertwine our fingers. I stare at him but he won't look me in the eyes, but I still hold his shoulder supportively.
"I just wanna run away from the pain with you. You make the pain go away, but stepping out into that city just consumes me in it."
Then he looks down into my eyes and I feel like I can see everything. The pain, the sadness, the wanting, it's all swimming in his eyes. Until he shuts his eyes and lightly falls against me. I think he just fell asleep. I cradle his warm body against mine and rub his back, as I listen to his steady breathing against my shoulder. My eyes carefully stare into the ceilings covered with posters. The ends are slowly starting to peel away, but I still think it looks pretty cool. My mind gets the best of me and I am unable to sleep. Carefully I move off the bed and let Dan stretch around on the bed. I unlace his shoes and place them near the door. I squat down next to the bed and gingerly brush his fringe away from his pretty eyelashes.
How sad is he? Is he always sad? Do I make him happy? If I do, do I make him like fully happy? Should we run away? No, we can't.
Suddenly an idea pops into my head. I kiss Dan's forehead, and plop down in my butt chair (it's a chair that is shaped as a butt and Dan thinks it's funny so I kept it) at my desk. I start to type away quickly, the only light in the room being the one reflected from my computer screen.

GUYS I AM SOOOO SORRY! I have been so busy with my classes lately and the holidays and exams are coming closer so ya. I'm very sorry for not updating sooner. Have an amazing day! ❤️