Him. //joshler {Completed}

Chapter 6

Trigger warning. Please stay safe guys ily!❤️

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Cut.

No.

Come on Josh, I know you want to. Just give in.

Shut up.

You've already got the things.

I do.

Then grab them an-

I'm not gonna do anything.

Don't tell me you're doing this for Tyler.

And if i am?

He rejected your kiss. You really think he likes you?

Maybe he needed time.

Yeah, time to get away from you. He hates you.

Shut up.

He-

No.

Hates-

"Fuck off!" I yelled as I slammed my fist into the bathroom counter. I grab onto the edge as tears escape my eyes. I let out a sob of sadness and pain.

Silence.

Maybe there're gone.

Nah I'm still here.

Fuck. Off.

I know you want to do it.

But I do.

I Thought as I let another sob come out. I wanted to do badly. I had enough. I grabbed the blade and put it against my, warm soft skin. The coldness of the blade sent shivers down my back.

Slice.

And so I did. I moved the blade across my skin as I sobbed and sobbed. I went again, and again, and again. Making marks all over my arms as my blood hit the floor. My tears streaming down my face to my skin, only making me cry more. I dropped the blade when I couldn't feel my arm. I couldn't feel anything. I was numb. I stood up and looked in the mirror. My sight only making me cry more.

Your pathetic.

I know.

I said as I slid down the bathroom wall, still crying.

Good.

Satisfied?

Not yet.

What now? I'll do anything to make you shut up.

Grab the pills.

I opened the cabinet and reached to grab my pills. I was breathing heavily. I let out a scream. I squeezed my eyes shut as more and more tears came.

Fucking stop acting like a baby and open the pills.

I let out a breath I didn't know i was holding. I opened the pills and poured some in my hand. I squeezed my hand shut, feeling the pills in between my fingers only making me want to swallow them. I dropped the bottle once all the pills were in my hand.

Swallow them.

I slowly opened my hand and looked at the pills. Is it really worth it?

Yes it is cause no one would miss you. Your dad hates you and Tyler hates you. Tyler always hated you. Josh, he was just using you.

A single tear came down my face as i opened my mouth and put the pills in my mouth. As I was about to swallow them I heard the front door slam open. "Josh!?"
Tyler's voice said and complete worry. How did he know? I quickly swallowed the pills.

Tyler doesn't care. He never did.

Yep. It's about time you accept the truth. Now hurry before he stops you.

I quickly grabbed my blade and did a few more cuts until I started to become dizzy. It was becoming darker. I heard footsteps running up the stairs and the bathroom door slam open.

Black.

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Well...
That's it..
Cliffhanger right?
I wanted to cry about this one but I didn't.
It's like 11:00pm on a school night and I'm over here writing a depressed fic. Don't worry there will be some fluff in here but just not now. I mean what's the whole point of a joshler fic if there isn't fluff.
Next chapter will be happier..I hope...
Anyways..
Stay safe!
Stay alive frens |-/❤️