Him. //joshler {Completed}

Chapter 7

Trigger warning. Stay safe ily y'all!❤️

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I woke up the next morning in my bed with only my boxers. I started to freak out. What happened?

You failed the stupid attempt. Better luck next time.

Oh. Right. I forgot.

Yeah. Maybe you should try again tonight.

No I need time. I mean I j-

I was broken from my thoughts when my door opened revealing a relived Tyler. "Oh Josh, than god your alive. I thought I lost you." Tyler said with tears in his eyes. "Well I'm still here," I said trying my best to smile. "Sadly." I mumbled the last part. "Well I hope I don't sound mean but I'm glad you failed." Tyler said hugging me, tightly. There was silence between us for a slight moment, until Tyler said something. "Josh?" Tyler said nervously. "Yeah?" I said looking at him. "Why'd you do it?" Tyler said looking at me, straight in the eyes. My gaze dropped to my hands. "I- I don't know." I said. Now that I think about it I really don't know why I did it. "Okay." Was all Tyler said, refusing to push farther. "Are you hungry?" Tyler said. When Tyler said that I instantly remembered my dad. "Wait did my dad see you? Was he here?" I was full-on panicking. "Josh calm down. He wasn't here last night." Tyler said smiling. "O-okay." I said sorta feeling relived. "So are you hungry?" Tyler repeated the question.

Don't eat. It'll make you get fat.

I looked at my stomach.

But I'm skinny.

No you're not. Your fat as a pig. Don't eat.

Okay.

"No I'm fine, thanks though. Maybe you should go eat." I said holding my stomach and doing a fake smile. "Josh, you need to stop lying, and I do notice those fake smiles." Tyler said getting up from the bed. "I'm going to make us both breakfast." Tyler said. He walked over towards me and kissed my forehead. "You shouldn't starve yourself. You're perfect." Tyler whispered. He got up and left the room, leaving me shocked. He called me perfect?

Bullshit he was only faking it.

Not now.

C'mon you can't bel-

No.

You don't-

Shh.

I said as I got up and got dressed, and went downstairs. "Smells nice." I said walking into the kitchen, this moment I really wanted to kiss him. I knew I couldn't. "That's good." Tyler said still cooking. I wanted to put my arms around his waist so badly, it was almost to hard to resist. I looked away and put my hand in a fist. I sat at the table and waited.

About five minutes later Tyler came with two plates of eggs and pancakes. With butter and syrup. I helped him put our food on the table. We are in silence. I conformable silence. Until Tyler broke the silence with something that made my heart beat fast.

"Josh?" Tyler said, avoiding eye contact. "Yeah?" I said looking at him. "I really like you." Tyler said. The worst part is that I didn't know if he meant in a friendly way. "I like you too." I didn't like this boy, I love him.

No you don't. You can lo-

Shut up blurry now isn't the time.

I thought which, surprisingly, made him shut up. "No Josh, I mean I like you more in a f- friendly w- way." Tyler said still avoiding eye contact. I sat there. I was in shock. How could he like me? Does this mean I have a chance with him? "Josh can you say something?" Tyler said as if he was trying to hold back tears. "I love you too." I said, seconds after I just realized what I said. I quickly drop my fork and cover my mouth, looking up at Tyler. Tyler stared at me, and when I said stared, he stared. Like he was staring straight into my soul and through my body.

Before I knew it I was pulled into a hug. A long one. I enjoyed every second on it, I never wanted it to end. Sadly it did and Tyler said, "Thanks for breakfast. I enjoyed it really but I think I should get going. See you at school tomorrow, Josh." Tyler said. He grabbed his things and left to leave. I stood there. Don't tell me he rejected me again.

He rejected you again.

What's wrong with me? Why did I have to say that?

Cause you're a pathetic. Worthless. Piece. Of. Shit.

"Shut up." I mumbled as my eyes became watery. I cleaned up and went to my room. I crawled under the covers and let all the thoughts get to me as I fell asleep crying.

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Okay so I want them to get together now but idk if I'm moving too fast. Am I?
And sorry for all the triggers and stuff but hopefully next chapter that will be over.
I like how I said that last chapter this chapter was gonna be happy but it wasn't.
Sorry this is short too..
Anyways..
Stay safe!
Stay alive frens |-/❤️