Him. //joshler {Completed}

Chapter 9

Blurryface hasn't came since...well since I can remember. I know he's still here, lurking in the dark. I know he's not gone.

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I woke up to my phone buzzing like crazy. It's from Tyler.

Tyler: Josh, Josh I'm so so sorry

Tyler: I'm really sorry I didn't know

Tyler: you're probably asleep

Tyler: I'm sorry but I have something to tell you.

I got worried. What can Tyler be so worried about?

Josh: Tyler what happened??

Tyler: you haven't heard?

Josh: no. Tyler what happened??

I was beginning to get impatient.

Tyler: your dad.

I felt my eyes water. What could've happened to my dad?

Josh: what about him?

I Thought to myself, debating if I wanna know the answer or not.

Tyler: he's dead.

Once I read that text I broke down. This couldn't be happening. He was the only person I had. I only cried harder thinking about it. "Why?" I whispered to myself. I sniffed and found enough strength to get up from my bed.

Short Trigger warning. Stay safe ily!❤️~~~~~~~

I made my way to the restroom and looked in the mirror. "What am I? How could this happen?" I said as I saw tears coming down my face. I repeatedly heard my phone buzz and assumed it was Tyler, I didn't even bother to read them.

This is your fault.

Shut up. Nows not the time.

Oh but it is. This is your fault, it's your fault he left, it's your fault your gay, it's your fault he hates you. Why can't you be normal?

"I-I don't know!" I yelled as I punched the mirror, making a slight crack. I cried harder.

Stop crying you baby.

"I- I'm trying." I said sniffling.

Grab the blade.

No. No anything but that.

Just grab it.

No I tol-

I was interrupted when I saw the bathroom door open, revealing Tyler. He looked at me with worry then at my hand and he looked more worried than he did before. I looked at my hand and I was holding a blade, a tiny bit of blood leaking from my hand. I dropped it in surprised. "I- I'm sorry I- I didn't-" "shhh, it's okay." Tyler whispered, cutting me off. He grabbed my wrists and lead me to my room.

Once we got settled in my room Tyler began to talk. "Josh.." he trailed off, looking at my hand with blood on it. "I- I didn't know. I- I tried to stop myself b- but I-" I was starting to cry again. "Okay, okay, you know what? Let's just sleep. It's been a long da- morning." I sighed as I nodded. I got under the covers. "C- can you stay?" I asked, with my voice hoarse from crying. "Of course." Tyler answered almost immediately. We snuggled up next to each other with my chin resting on the top of his head. "I love you." I said quietly. "I love you too." Tyler said as he closed his eyes.

Once his breaths evened out I allowed myself to sleep.

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Short chapter I KNOW.
I've been on writers block and really sad and depressed so that explains the sad chapters.
I'm sorry about that.
Idk if I'm gonna post tomorrow Soo
Anyways..
Stay safe!
Stay alive frens |-/❤️