Him. //joshler {Completed}

chapter 12

I have no idea what to do with this book.
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"Josh." I heard Tyler's voice behind me. I ignored him. I wanted no more of him, he just used me, right? "Josh." Tyler said again, I kept walking, I wanted to get home as fast as I can. I heard footsteps running towards me and I began to run. Someone grabbed my wrist and turned me around, I hiss from the contact, making my hand into a fist. I look to see who grabbed my wrist and to my greatest luck, its Tyler. He seems confused and concerned about my hiss and loosened his grip on my wrist. He looked at me then rolled up my sleeves to reveal freshly new cuts from last week.

Stupid you should've bandaged them.

Says the person who told me not to.

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Don't bandage them.
Why?
Cause whenever people grab your wrist you can feel the pain.
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I snap back into reality when I feel a drop of water fall into my skin. I realize Tyler is crying. "Wh- why did y-you do thi-this?" Tyler said, his voice breaking with every word. I broke me seeing him like this. All I could do was look down at my feet, "I'm sorry." I say quietly. Tyler wiped his tears with his sleeve. "Is this because of me?" Tyler mumbled. "No! No, no, no. This isn't any of your fault." It really wasn't, blurry just got to me again. "Ye-yes it is, I did this to you." Tyler said, his cries breaking into a sobs, his voice cracking. "No- no, Tyler this wasn't you- pl-please don't-don't cry," great now I was crying. I pulled Tyler into a tight hug, my arms around his neck as his arms slide around my waist, his head buried in my chest. "Tyler it wasn't your fault. None of this was." I whispered, my voice cracking a little as I bury my head in Tyler's shoulder.

After a few minutes Tyler calmed down but was still hugging me, I stopped crying also, but staying in the hug. "I hate seeing you like this, hurting yourself. I hate seeing you hurt." Tyler said, breaking the silence. "I know and I'm s-" I began but was cut off by Tyler. "Then why'd you do it?" I thought to myself as why I really did do it. I wasn't thinking it was just me and blurry. "He got the best of me." I said quietly. Tyler only sighed.

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-time skip to school (I forgot what day it was or what was happening so bare with me)-

I haven't seen Tyler this whole weekend. Besides the thing that happened. I was walking to class when I bumped in, the one and only, Jenna. I walked back a little bit to regain my balance, while Jenna just stood there. "Oh your Josh, right?" Jenna said walking forwards a little bit. "Yes." I said, sounding annoyed. "Tyler talks-" she began but I cut her off. "Are you and Tyler dating?" I said, taking a step forward. She thought for a moment until answering. "No, we were best friends at Tyler's old school. We're just so close that- wait. You were the guy that started crying when you saw us! Oh, I'm so sorry him doing that-" she stopped once she saw me on the verge of tears. "Oh I'm sorry. Don't cry. If-if it helps, Tyler's gay.." She said trailing off. I breathed in and out to calm down. "Thank you." Was all I said and went off to class.

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You stupid bitch why did you listen.

What do you mean? Tyler is gay.

Sure. He's still just using you. Don't be crying when-

Shut up.

No.

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The school day was finally over and Tyler was seen no where. I started to get worried so I texted him.

Josh: hey where are you?
Read at 4:28pm

Tyler: on the bridge.

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I decided to leave it as this. This is possibly the best chapter I ever wrote. The book is still on hold since I don't have it planned out. Please keep reading and bare with me.
Anyways..
Stay safe!
Stay alive frens |-/❤