Perfect

Ch.22

JOSH'S POV

I walked up to my door step pulling out my house key. I was nervous.... really nervous I knew they would still be sleeping but that didn't help the fact that I was telling them today and I have no idea how. Like how do I bring it up. I can't just walk in to the kitchen and be like 'hey mom hey dad how is your day going.... ya I'm fine..... oh and about 5 months ago I got my self addicted to heroin and I got Teegan addicted to it to but it's ok because were both going to rehab.' Ya no. I walked into my house after realizing that I was just standing there with my thoughts. The house was quite I walked towards the kitchen. And of coarse Sara was in there sitting on the stool. She didn't say anything, she just gabbed an apple from the island in our kitchen and left while giving me a glare.

"Just remember you have until tomorrow" she said as she walked down the stairs. This made me feel horrible but it also made me sure that I was telling them today. No questions I was getting clean for my family. My sisters my parents. Teegan. She was the main reason I'm getting clean and I can only hope that she feels the same. And there I was again just standing there with a blank face deep in my thoughts. I really need to stop doing that.

I ran down stairs into my room I didn't know what else to do. I started to think how I'm going to tell my parents because if I didn't tell them today, Sara was telling them tomorrow. I can't let that happen I have to tell them.

I decided to try and finish a song that I had been working on. It was close someday I want this song to be on an album. This song has so much emotion and feeling about everything. About heroin. About my addiction. About cutting. About Teegan. I wondered how much more time we had together? What will happen after rehab? Will we still be in love? Ya I said it. In love I love Teegan. I Josh Ramsay love Teegan.

TEEGAN'S POV

I laid in my bed all day with my thoughts and sometimes that can't get kind of scary. I'm scared of myself what if one day I go too far. I tried texting Josh to see if he could come over because I'm really not sure how much more time we had together. He never replied I just assumed he was busy or he told his presents already and they took his phone away. But it didn't matter I was stuck here with my thoughts witch is hell. I'm scared to find out what will happen after rehab. I haven't even told Tasha about it yet, I figured I better ask my mom if I can. I walked up the stairs and peeked around the corner into the living room where she was. The tv was on but very quite she just stared at it with a blank expression. She was thinking, about me. I don't even think she noticed me walk in until I called her.

"Mom" I spoke up my voice was I bit shaky "can I ask you something"

"Yup" by her tone I couldn't tell if she was pissed off or upset. I just couldn't read her emotion. I guess she's where I get it from. Now I know how my friends feel half the time. Josh and my mom were the only ones who always knew what I was thinking or if something was wrong.

"I was wondering if I could have Tasha over for a bit so I could tell her everything and say goodbye." She was about to say no but then the expression on her face changed "please mom I just don't want to leave her with out and explanation" I pleaded.

"Ok but you have two hours and then she has to leave" I was going to go and give her a hug but she got up and left before I even had the chance. I quickly ran down the stairs and texted Tasha and told her to come over that it was an emergency. She texted me back right away saying she'll be here in like 5 minutes. I went into the kitchen to get a glass of water and walking in there made me realize that I haven't eaten in like two days. Not that I really minded but I know in rehab they are going to make me eat and I don't know if I can't eat three meals a day if not more. I'm just not sure how I'm going to handle all of this all at once. But I know I have to do it. For my mom. For Tasha. But mostly importantly Josh. I honestly don't know what the future holds after rehab. I might go back to school and graduate but maybe not I really don't know. I just hope where ever I am the my mom, Tasha, Matt, and Josh are all there because I can't do this alone. I don't want to do this alone it's bad enough I have to be away from all of them until I get clean.

I heard Tasha walk in the door. I creeped around the corner. Now I was starting to get nervous. My hand got really shaky and I was all sweaty. I don't know how I'm going to tell her or how she's going to react.

"Hey Teegan, what's up?" She carefully stared to walk towards me. I started tracing on my arm like Josh was doing on our way home from the festival, It made my feel more comfortable.

"Um, I have something I need to tell you and I'm not sure how your going to take it" after that she just nodded and followed my down stairs.

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"Tasha please stop pacing it's not that bad" she's wasn't take the news that we'll and I haven't even told her that I'm leave for I while.

"Not that bad? Not that bad! Teegan you got your self addicted to heroin. That stuff could kill you"

"I haven't even told you the worst part yet, I'm going away.... To rehab" tears stared streaming down her face. She dropped to the floor with her face in her hands she started crying even harder.

JOSH'S POV

And if your ever feeling you're

Bruised and battered, always sore

And I wont tell no one

If you fix you

How do we fix you now?

All the things you did before

When you used to need it more

Remember all the ways you fixed us?

How do we fix this now?

I played the last few notes on my guitar, I was really happy with this song one day this song is going to be one my album. I can't wait to show Teegan she's going to love it. It has so much meaning and feelings. Just then my happiness was shattered.

"Josh dinner in 10 minutes." Wow had I really been in here all day. I guess when I'm playing time goes by fast. I walked upstairs to find Sara already sitting at the table. Mom started putting food on the table. They all started dishing up there plates. I just sat there I was really nervous. Anyway had to tell them today I just don't know how they're going to take.

"Josh how has your day been" Sara said hinting that I haven't told them yet. She was starting to get on my nerves.

"Good actually I finished a song that I have been working really hard on" I recovered quickly I don't want my parents to suspect anything.

"Anything you would like to tell mom and dad" she said giving me a smile. I looked down at my plate which still had nothing on it. Now is the time I had to tell them.

"Josh are you ok" my dad said while putting his hand on my shoulder forcing me to look up.

"Actually no I have something I have been hiding for a long time now and it's time I tell you so you can help me fix it"

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This story will be ending in the next few chapters but I wanna thank every one who has been reading this because in have almost 500 reads!