Sent 1:14 A.M.
are you awake
Sent 1:23 A.M.
I am now
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im sorry
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It's alright hun. What dyou need
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idk
can't sleep i guess
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I figured that out already
I was doing my best to go back to sleep. I really was. I just... couldn't. It happened often, almost every night. I'd wake up late, text Jasmine, and just lay in bed. I hadn't been doing too well lately. Something in my head was making me feel sick. Sick... Is that the right word to use? I dunno at this point.
"Christ, Jasmine..."
I groaned and answered my phone, which had started buzzing once Jasmine called me. I was trying to go to sleep. I didn't really wanna pick up, but she'd get worried if I didn't.
"What?"
"You sound happy to hear my voice."
"It's 1:30 in the morning, Jazz. What d'you want?"
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. I just woke up, alright? You worry too much."
"I'd rather worry than not care."
"Yeah, whatever... G'night, Jazz."
"Hey..."
"What?"
"I love you."
"I love you, too."
I sighed and set my phone on my nightstand. The ceiling looked almost pitch black with all the lights off. Only then did I notice that. I wished I hadn't hung up. I hate being alone with my thoughts. They're never good thoughts.
"I thought you were goin' back to sleep?"
"Yeah. I just got a question."
"...Okay?"
"Am I enough?"
"What?"
"I mean... Am I good enough for you? Do I treat you okay? I know how rough your last relationship was, and-"
"You lost it, Anthony. You wanna talk in the mornin' when you ain't stuck on stupid?"
"Well, jeez, you don't gotta be rude about it."
"G'night, Anthony. I love you."
She hung up after that. I sighed and tried to go to sleep again. I did, eventually. Only took about an hour or so.
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I'm (Not) Sorry
Fanfiction"I am weak. I am broken. I am damaged. I am not able to save you. I am sorry you found me. I am not sorry I found you."